Monday, 29 November 2021

Negative November

 This is the bit of the year that i hate when what little freedom i get is drying up , one last Jumble Sale next weekend i may well buy everything just for the sake of something to look at ...lol .. The whole world has gone xmas tat im afraid . Cherie your the only person for whom this is allowed , it is your reason for living ..lol                                                                                                                                                                     Meanwhile the mucking around with my tablets is proving fun although ive managed more than 4 hours of sleep several nights  , i even got an epic 6 hours a couple of times only to wake up to someone shouting me for his morning ablutions then spending the day with him griping that the house was a tip because their were two cups in the sink .AAARRRGGHHH Its back to the winter chores of endless condensation and mould cleaning everyday .  I also keep bursting into tears for weird random reasons , yesterday i ached so much that i burst into tears because i havent had a bath in years , it would be so amazing to just sink into the heat , we have a perfectly usable disabled wet room but heigh ho , i then remembered we couldnt afford to have a bath in the house due to the water meter , plus a bath goes cold very rapidly in a unheated bathroom.  Then i got up this morning and im weepy again because he asked me what i wanted for xmas and all i could think of was somebody to cook for me and just do a days chores which got me ...Bloody silly cow                                                                                                                                           Two weeks and i change my  medication again ...i can see this is going to be a fun xmas 

12 comments:

  1. I've just left a note for you on my blog. You can see the Moon between the 7th and the 27th of February at Lincoln Cathedral.

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  2. Bless you!! Life is such a bitch sometimes , it can an uphill battle, you are allowed to break down, it releases negativity albeit for a short while x

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  3. I do wish I could pop round and relieve you for a few hours! I used to swap keys with a friend for an afternoon every other week and she'd go to mine for a bath and a bit of peace and I'd go to hers and have a little clean and have a nag of her teen. Like you, she didn't have a bath but did have aches, and her son needed reminding to help his mum out and be a bit less revolting!
    Nothing wrong with a wee weep, it can be like a pressure release - you might have gone postal without one!

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  4. You sound like you're at the end of your tether, after years of being close to it. Hugs x

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  5. I'm so sorry you're feeling so low. Sendning love. xxx

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  6. Get rid of all your frustrations and talk to us bloggers. We are thinking of you and sending hugs xx Val

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  7. We must be twins. Same thing going on here, up and down with emotions. I keep telling myself that nothing lasts for ever.
    Hugs
    Briony
    x

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  8. If you lived a bit closer I'd cook you a lovely Christmas Dinner and tuck you up on the sofa for the afternoon with a box of chocolates and full control of the TV remote. :-)

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  9. Good golly, but do I feel for you! Of course, you are the better person because I would have told other half where to go hisself. Or, in order to avoid being charged with murder, I would have walked out because I would have had to ... or go to jail for killing him... So you are such an amazing person to live with all that you have and do. I totally respect you.

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  10. I'm sorry things are getting to you at the moment-When I get to the end of my tether I rush hurry away elsewhere-it is difficult though-I don't have such serious health problems as you-just bad heads which I was told may be because of stress-Would soaking your feet elsewhere quietly with a blanket and hot water bottle and book help for a while you can tell him you have a nasty problem to deal with and escape x

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