World Wide

Im afraid im a passivist, so everything going on in the world is pretty abhorrent at the moment , none of the people involved are in the right regardless of their religion creed or whatever . Its the lack of concern for the public that is terrifying , just bomb away for the glory of oil and money . One certainty is that if they back the Israel faction into a corner they will use nukes without any hesitation .  Trump cant remember what lies hes supposed to be using from day to day . Iran has been quietly buying missiles from Temu  for years while everybody was watching them for nukes  . Ho hum ..who the hell knows where this is going. 

im doing a stocktake of supplies, odd stuff that ive run down and not replaced , country living will be in a bad way with rising fuel costs and delivery will probably be the first thing to go which hits you hard when theres no other options , himself and his brother are going off to replenish his welding gas tomorrow, I had to remind a friend about her cooker gas , its the stuff we would normally forget till Autumn that we have to get now before it vanishes , if the problems drag on till next winter we will freeze , heating oil has already gone up by a third in less than a week ...im so mental that ive even considered one of those green plastic greenhouses in the dining room for all the houseplants and me , cheap and cheerful with a candle heater and a carbon monoxide alarm ..lol 

Somebody just mentioned canning jars and lids , i got a couple more Kilner clip tops yesterday at the jumble and will order more disc lids plus garden myself into a coma despite not planning to this year . So for those who never get the urge to can or jam make , dont put your glass jars and lids into the recycling, save a box full and put them at your gate marked free they will vanish in no time.

Right im off  to go and gibber in the corner , while trying to remember stuff ive forgot  

Sleep

 Well living in the middle of two huge airbases , the last 2 weeks have been a tad noisy as well the usual fighter jets but its the cargo planes at night  that are a killer, the house vibrates and that wakes me up even with ear plugs . Just to make it more fun theyre war gaming next week . Living here for years we dont notice it like the incomers they look a tad worried when the jets are screaming above us . But hey theres a war on what can we expect ?  More things to be peeved about are the garages running out of fuel , i get it , we are very rural so people need it for work , but theres no shortage yet, it should take a few weeks for this to hit , people flogging petrol cans for ridiculous amounts on facebook are taking the piss , plus the big chain garages upping the prices already. No amount of dont panic will make folks not panic , so we shall see.  i will stock up on milk just because im at the last pack from the january delivery and a couple of other bits we are low on , but otherwise im pretty well stocked so i dont need to go anywhere we have a vehicle fueled and it can be used just for hospital and doctor visits and we will just sit here and watch the news .   .  

Mind Games

 Here i am , vanishing up my own backside trying to please everyone and pleasing nobody..lol  Anyway I got treated to a day out the other day which was good for my sanity . Spalding with my daughter , she had a hospital appointment and hadnt been there before , we went into the actual town centre , bitter winter wind but it has a ton of charity shops and the empty shops are worse than anywhere ive seen . its clean , pretty and has enough good obscure charity shops to make it worth a wander round, there was a God botherer shouting about Jesus the whole time we were wandering . I do think that allowing the Springfields retail outlet out of town has killed it . We did pop there but only visited the garden centre because they had a dead plant sale on, i bought rather heavily,  oops . Decided to pop into Boston to do the charity shops and pop to the big garden centre there sadly they are under renovation so nothing interesting for us , the charity shops however were quite good a lot of them have shut but theres still a good few and the YMCA had loads of lucky clothing  bags for at the most £2.50 they even had some large size ones  something you never see , so i snaffled a couple and was pleasantly surprised it was mainly summer stock some to keep and some to carboot. Im counting the days till the season starts  i cant cope with this level of crap everywhere and theres loads more to come from mothers yet . Legal matters are turning into a literal shit show and not knowing what the hell is going to happen is constantly preying on my mind.  

Glass

 Ho Hum forgive me because ive sinned , i was bidding on a live auction last week that had one lot i actually needed , won that for a whopping £3 which i was very pleased with . So to me as it was the furthest one i visit , it seemed quite logical to bid on 3 £1 lots that came up after it and i might as well get a little car boot and charity stock for the same amount of petrol . Went yesterday and found that i had bid on huge lots of glassware and had also gained even more that other people hadnt took in fact a full van of glassware which i just chucked into shopping bags to the horror of the staff at the auction. I discovered years ago that wrapping glass is a waste of time you damage far less if you  literally plonk them in bags with the heavy bits at the bottom ..lol ..So im sat here surrounded , all the ordinary tableware glass will go to the local bottle bank , you cant give it away . Theres a ton of small crystal that im boxing for the charity shop . Then theres the good stuff which is seriously heavy crystal vases , some modern ones and all the weird stuff im sorting through , theres two nice china tea sets that i may facebook because im insane , and a lot of pretty bits that will sell at the car boot .  Smashed one huge crystal bowl dropping a set of crutches on it and maybe two cheap glasses . Ive also got a huge box of planters  to sort through , the dining room and kitchen look like a battlefield , im just trying to psych myself up into a crystal washing session ,  I may try photos later if it stays fine ..lol 

Shoppin

I just wrote a  whole post pressed enter and the whole thing vanished , its days like this i want to just give up with computers im finding it harder and harder to cope with modern life . Anyway here we go again 

I was dragged to the depths of  Currys the other day because i broke the foot on my 20 year old cylinder cleaner , now i was contented to wait till i found another foot . But himself insisted i should buy a new one . Well the first thing i found was that they had just one bagless cylinder cleaner on sale , so i ended up with that , i had to point out to my daughter that i cant use the huge stick hoovers because they pop my shoulder out of joint and hoovering this house where you never know whats going up the hoover be it a half chewed mouse or a few nuts and bolts isnt for something fragile . I cant even get the thing apart to empty it without assistance . Even better they didnt have any stock it has to be delivered . What is the point of this palace of a shop if you cant buy anything ?

Another strange question why do they sell nearly 50 different coffee machines  all with different pods ? heres me with a cafeteria that ive had years that i can tip any pod into , just baffles me .

My daughter was trying to convince me how much i need an airfryer , i cant eat greasy food so why do i need an airfryer? 

So thats me im unable to comply with all the modern needs and wants , ive even turned off my phone now mother has gone and i dont have to listen to her dramas , all thats on it is adverts so whats the point ?

PS... i caught the slimy buggers trying to chuck the old hoover in the bin ...no chance im sure i will find a spare foot somewhere 

Smoke

 Well here we go again i can only bite my tongue for so long, lets talk about the smoke and mirrors of the Epstein files latest drop .  Anybody would think that it was aimed at those who Trump is upset with  , everybody else has been redacted , its taken them years of black marker to make it say what they want.  Trump can shout fake news as much as he wants everybody knows he was bosom buddies with Epstein. Then theres Peter Mandelson aka The Prince of Darkness offering himself up as some kind of ritual sacrifice , he knows no shame , never has never will , so who is he protecting ?  Blair or the rest of the Labour ruling classes ? Or perhaps royalty? hes not taking the fall for the benefit of anyone but himself so whos paying for this theatre thats the real question we should be asking .  I do think this is all Trumps punishment for not telling him hes welcome to Greenland . 

 The fact that they released the names and addresses of some of the victims is truly disgusting , by accident of course. They have had the Epstein files for so long that who can tell what is the truth in them, multiple agencies and shysters have used them to their advantage. Theres no justice going to take place in the USA over these matters . This is why the vast majority of the victims never come forward because it seems pointless , youve rebuilt your life you have children and family why would you risk that for a moment of fame and to be vilified by the media for stuff you had no control over.  Virginia Giuffre and the other public victims are the bravest people walking and look where that has got them  

Done

 So thats Mommy Dearest put to rest , there doesnt seem to be many of us left , but those who remain are in their 80s and 90s and pretty lively .  The officiate at the crem , couldnt understand when we started sniggering at the choice of the hymns she picked them herself  , she always said it was great if nobody knew them and she was right . We donated her posh plastic wreaths to the undertaker to be reused , he seemed quite chuffed . We then adjourned to her favourite pub for dinner and drinkies , we had to be careful not to give Aunty Mary any booze otherwise it would have turned into a Reform meeting , her and mother were both great singers of Nigel is wonderful . We had the Thelma and Louise aged duo who managed to get lost on the way to the funeral but made it to the pub , they somehow ended up in Stoke and then belted down the motorway in the wrong direction in their tiny car , the general consensus was make sure they go out of the carpark before everyone else ...lol  There were cousins who i hadnt seen since they were kids and Uncle Roy, well into his 80s , there were pictures at grandmas of him as a teenager and he hasnt changed much at all . Then we sat and swapped tales of how bleedin batshit crazy mother was and the legendary drinking . It was a very long day and the weather was atrocious .  Meanwhile back at the bungalow can anyone explain why someone would have a large wardrobe full of cleaning products and hundreds of candles ? Daughter has made heroic efforts at cleaning the place out , but theres still tons of stuff left , hopefully the furniture can be shifted on facebook , it goes up for sale today .

Dib Dib Dib

 Will the 29000 people who are currently without water become the next generation of preppers ?  The simple fact that the penny hasnt dropped that our government will do nothing for anyone in the event of an emergency somewhat baffles me . I grew up in the Lincolnshire wilderness back in the 60s it wasnt a case of prepping but common sense . We had a bus once a week on market day , a mobile butcher , a mobile shop that was if you lived in a village, so of course you made sure you were well stocked up with most everything . It wasnt till the late 60s and the 70s that ordinary people got cars and could shop further afield this then killed the mobile shops and the bus services over the course of a few years. I hate the fact that we are so reliant on Amazon , we are even having to have then deliver our milk each month , all the cat food comes in bulk as well , daft stuff like toiletries , wash powder batteries etc etc Amazon . You cant have morals or scruples if you live rurally . We are surrounded by chicken farms but cant buy eggs , bird flu has killed folks selling eggs at the gate , they stopped the dairy selling milk at their gate , we have posh farm shops that are for the tourists and middle classes just dont look to closely at the labels folks , country of origin may well be the other side of the world but it will have a Union Jack on the packaging or labels, so thats fine. What a bloody mess we are in and they dont want to resolve it  

Spring in my Step

 With all thats going on in my little bubble im looking at maybe giving the garden a miss this year , ive tons of seed saved and may just grow a few container things and portable edible stuff . Its all the decisions that need to be made , plus the possibilities of stuff not going as planned . I would quite like to stay here where i am settled its not great , but nowhere is, maybe i can become the village witch or something , you know grey haired and wrinkly followed around by my familiars Dave the hedgehog and the cats. I know one thing i dont want to move to Cheshire and mothers bungalow or to some barren pensioner ghetto any where else . I like life going on around me , kids in the street , neighbours getting hammered and falling out , im just a common none working class sort of person  But once you get folks sending you endless estate agent blurb you realise what you dont want not what you want , himself would be a nightmare in a little middle class estate theyre used to him here so they dont bat an eyelid . its funny the only thing im looking forward to is a big branch shredder..lol . You see once again even from the grave Mommy Dearest is trying to make me conform to her ideals and it isnt happening , its just screwing with my mind every day . So if my posts seem a bit odd dont worry i will get my head round things eventually but i need time to think 

Gammon

So himself had his monthly trip to the blood folks the other day it didnt start well when you couldnt get near the disabled parking or the drop off points due to the weather , so he had to do snow on his crutches . Anyway he come back in a foul mood because he knew doing that amount of walking would leave him in agony . Now he comes to the good bit , the little hijab wearing blood lady  asks him if its alright if she does it or does he object and want someone else ?  This baffled him and he said he didnt care who saw him , so he asked her why and it seems a lot of the gammon fraternity refuse treatment from her . He was horrified by this but i set him off by saying well you do look the part . Epic rant started but i pointed out your the right age your nearly bald and you wear the outfit .  Theres nobody less of a gammon but i also pointed out that a lot of his friends have a fondness for flags and ranting about immigrants and  a few family members. What is the world coming to .  

Weird Rants

 Now that we have entered the realms of the funeral industry , end of the month by the way somewhat appropriately on my ex husbands birthday as Mommy Dearest loved him so much as he wasnt  a miserable joy sapper like me and would happily sit and day drink with her till falling over then drive me and the kids back from Wales . Those were the days . 

Todays weird thought , shouldnt someone be on dragons den punting rental funeral flowers? the cost of them is horrendous and this time of year even higher peaking for Valentines Day , you can get huge arrangements of plastic flowers off amazon which im sure she would like because the last time i sent her an Interflora bouquet she shoved it in her bin because they were cheap looking ...bless

Then theres her address book where shes scribbled out loads of people and wrote dead next to , some are very much alive just dead to her , theres a notice gone in the local paper in a vain try to round up any remaining family and friends but when your 90 youve pretty much outlived everyone,  so we have no idea how many will turn up.

You just know on the day of the funeral there will be blizzards so we cant get there  

Cold

bleedin hell its a tad chilly , managing on an hours heating in the morning and an hour after dinner , fortunately the suns out and even in a winter it warms most of the house up , sadly not the kitchen dining room which has reached a balmy 12 degrees  due to the smallest radiator in the house in the biggest space , ive been wrapping the tropical houseplants up in bubble wrap at night..lol  though im nice and toasty in bed with a hot water bottle and a cat , no snow it seems to be catching  all down the coast and inland here .But heres a catcher , brother in law rang and asked to borrow some money for electric , he has never done this before , so much for the super duper air source heat pump the council has fitted recently , its costing him £20 a day and they cant turn it off or down , he says its like the tropics he has to have the windows open just to breathe. Another eco bollocks government funded scam , but hey net zero and all that . His house is a prefab Airy house and theyre just not suitable for whats been fitted 

Mommy Dearest

 Well on the 22nd mother left the building after a row with her carer about them putting thickener in her cuppa tea . They went back an hour later and she had sneaked off with no fuss or bother , please no condolences , i wasnt sure how i would feel about this but my only emotion is relief . My daughter and other family are the ones grieving . My son has decided to christen dec 22nd dead granny day and we are to celebrate with enough alcohol to fall over and eating maltesers till we throw up , his grandmother hated him and made it very clear from when he was small . It being xmas everything is a bit of a cock up. The coroner got involved because they are very keen about deaths in care because they covered Harold Shipmans area , i had  a slightly odd conversation asking if i had and doubts about the validity of her death and any suspicions of foul play , none whatsoever so they agreed they didnt need to do an autopsy and we could apply for a death certificate but theyre shut for xmas so more faff about ,  we found out that the undertakers who she had specified had retired but the People at Golden Charter who she had a prepaid funeral plan with gave us another one , they were really helpful , but  nothing can progress  and its unlikely to do till late january because theres a backlog. My daughters got her organising head on and mothers solicitor isnt answering anything so i presume theyre off till after the new year . We shall see life goes on , im just glad that her money will cover her care home expenses and anything else that arrives , i never wanted it and she was always well cared for which was all that mattered . But im sure there will be a few folks popping out of the woodwork questioning where the money has gone   

Pack Up

 Well im afraid its time to pack up early for xmas. lifes throwing us curveballs im afraid . Mommy Dearest had a stroke on Sunday night , we fpund out that the nightstaff at the home dont speak much english so it was fun trying to figure out what was happening until they put the paramedic on the phone , mother is DNR and on end of life care, she has detiorated greatly over the last month i was having to deal with hysterical night staff and  a paramedic who didnt want to take responsibility and intended to take it up the food chain because they couldnt find the correct green form . it was eventually decided to get the on call doctor to come to her , not a big problem as the hospital is just across the car park .  Eventually the english speaking manager and the doctor got back to me, the doctor said he didnt see  the point in her going to the hospital as it would involve a 12 hour wait on a trolley in a corridor before she was even seen , by this time mother had perked up enough to be shouting abuse in the background , the home manager was happy for her to stay there as the missing green form had now been found . The doctor said he was going to sedate her for a couple of days and now we are at the point where despite the stroke shes more alert than she has been for a few weeks and very irate because she has to have a cup of tea in a sippy cup . Who knows ? will she make xmas ? or will her temper kill her . So long as shes safe and well cared for i dont see what else we can do  

Therapy

 I suppose my lack of Xmas spirit stems from my mother and her Hyacinth Bucket Xmases we had as a child , back in the 60s and 70s, fun wasnt welcome at those occasions , it was having to be a colour co ordinated member of the family , having to sit on the knee and be polite to my abuser , a tinsel xmas tree because she couldnt be doing with the mess and my poor old dad never being good enough or getting nothing but abuse from her , if she wasnt the center of the universe at any occasion we both suffered . Between that and the 100 a day clouds of cigarette smoke , it was menthol so it was good for you and the booze that didnt bring out the good in any of them i spent every second i could get away from them hiding under my bed crouched on the lino , just hoping my uncle didnt get sent to find me . I was so relieved when i aged out from his attentions and he found a younger niece to play with .  A few years ago i bumped into my Aunt and probably out of sheer malice asked how my cousin was these days her face was horror struck and she just garbled that she hasnt seen her in years . 

Time Ticking

 Not around a great deal at the moment , to many problems to little time , himself has  been exceeding my expectations in so many ways ,,lol .. well he decided he wanted to take me xmas grocery shopping to the big Tesco at Boston it was an experience, hes on his buggy at ramming speed , not paying a jot of attention to the shopping we actually need  but busy bar humbugging at all the xmas stuff i wasnt going to buy anyway at the top of his voice.  He was busy saying im not paying that and slinging stuff out of the trolley when i finally snapped and pointed out that we have to eat something regardless of cost and that most of the stuff still in the trolley was stuff i couldnt eat anyway . Talk about the death silence , it got a tad frosty thats for shore and i will need to manage a shop without him before xmas .

Then in his disordered thinking mode it seems he had been inviting the world and his wife for xmas dinner ffs this resulted in a bit of a discussion, so we now have them spread over two days which is more manageable but is probably going to kill me as im still only running at 50% plus theres the cost of it all , not helped  by his biggest FUp . You see we ran out of heating oil and we cant get a delivery till the 22nd  plus hed spent the soddin oil money on vehicle parts for other folks who arent likely to pay this side of xmas , so weve had to use the grocery money. we do get a payment on the 23rd so then i will have to run round and get everything i need , hopefully without him. Daughter is sponsoring my bad jumble and auction habit for my xmas present and ive managed to quietly flog a few bits here and there .

Then theres Mommy Dearest who has taken to her bed to die , she is now officially allowed to after a meeting with social services old uncle Tom Cobley and all. after a couple of months in the 1950s which i suppose was her happy time she has packed up and left the building .  It has been noted by other family members who are disgusted that we are not making more effort to keep her alive , but shes well looked after and safe and theres nothing much more anyone can do at this stage  

Tedium

 I think ive got to that time of the year where the urge to kill himself gets really strong ..lol He has his disability van back and hes bouncing around wanting to go out and theres nowhere to go unless your a Xmas Head , its all very craft fair and Christmas Fayre every shop is a sea of xmas stock that you never knew you needed and you dont need it at all . What next on the xmas food front, vol-a-vents with sparkly reindeers tears? perhaps Snowman meringues with Influencer packaging ? The god awful perfume adverts are back in force , but as someone pointed out the other day does anyone wear perfume anymore ?  Mind you its nearly December so those of a xmas persuasion are excused for putting the decorations up now or at least  dragging them out of the attic, finding the lights dont work and you somehow packed the cat along with the tree last year. Your local Facebook seems to be rammed with photos of front doors with a parcel on the step and folks asking is this your front door or are you so and so cos i have your parcel , its as if theyre going past on a sleigh and just sprinkling the area with parcels . Well what else can you expect after all its a Happy Commercial Xmas !!

Progress

 Oh no it would seem i must try the new super duper blogger features, did we ask for them ? do we need them? the big gap in the market for all these wonderful ideas is a sort of Windows basic or  Google Oldie . where there is an absolute basic package that you then bolt addons onto IF you need them. Its all gone a bit far they all think they need to think up a new gimmick every five minutes or maybe the younger generation can only cope that way? Something where if the cat walks over the keyboard nothing much changes would be nice or is that asking to much . I suppose im a bit of a problem because i still see the internet as a tool rather than a necessity , i still use reference books and dont rely on image search for the things i purchase , i was reared to do research and books were what i learned from , you try that online and its welcome to the world of AI deceit, plus it all seems to be pushing a very narrow view of everything that if youve lived a life is very obviously lies . 

Himself keeps asking what i want for xmas ..lol..ive bought him a metal workshop chair because he breaks all the wooden ones . I suggested to him, could i have a bookcase of books from one of the local auctions , they sell whole bookcases full with really bad pictures and a vague description and i would really enjoy going through them and seeing what i want to read or keep , good project for the dead space of the xmas period. Then i could carboot what ive read in the Spring . Well at least he didnt flinch , why am i not surprised he said. But i notice he didnt say no 

Shoe B Careful

Heres a weird one for you , has anybody else had their shoes disintegrate while wearing them of late?  I had a pair of couple of year old Evans boots worn maybe a dozen times and put them on Saturday, went to take them off and most of the surface of the boots disintegrated in my hands , they weren't expensive by most peoples standards but to me they were, not repairable so into the bin they went . Now strangely enough a couple of weeks ago i bought a nice Joules handbag at the jumble and much the same happened to that . So it being cold and because im bored i looked it up on line and found hundreds of people online having the same problem a lot have contacted retailers and been told that its not their fault so go away . I kept trawling and found some answers , hydrolysis is when the souls disintegrate and it would seem that the vinyl covering of pleather as they call it now has to be biodegradable so quite literally they are designed to rot in landfill. You have no idea when buying shoes how long theyve been made surely they should come with a sell by date ?   

Shoppin

 I must have had a premonition , his part for his van has finally turned up !!!  Now the garage just has to find the time to fix it ..lol at least it will mean i can have my kitchen and living room back , i currently have his disabled wheels stuck in the kitchen and his hoist and other disabled gubbins in the living room , they had to be removed due to the value of them before the wretched vehicle could go to the garage so ive been walking round a track for months .

On the shoppin front i'd seen on line that Tesco had half price beef joints , so i thought Xmas . popped in yesterday and was stood at the side of the chiller of beef with three other folks shaking our heads the aforementioned Clubcard special offer , was shrink wrapped vivid red and looked like the end bits off proper joints , i picked up a small you know it will shrink to the size of a beefburger on cooking lump, £25 and this is half price? There is retail piss taking everywhere but thats one of the worse ive seen . Half price shoulder of lamb £18 bugger all on it just a bone. Well i needed bread and eggs and they took some finding, theyve just revamped little Tesco and theres no logic to it . Everywhere were folks wandering round muttering , one women was in the stock cubes muttering about how they had gone up by over £1 in a week,  I guess we are paying for the revamp !! with their billions of pounds profit they are taking the piss ..