Friday, 30 July 2021


 I was tipped off by sarcastic son that Mr BH was up to something the other day , he had seen my dearly beloved counting a big stack of notes while i was out . Not saying anything i checked the safe only to find it empty . This is the emergency rent fund for when they stop all our funds yet again which we have been awaiting since March , this has took some saving all through Covid . So i made a few enquiring calls to his usual suspect mates and BIL . I wasnt surprised to find that he was organising the troops to pick up a trike this weekend !!  Why does he convince himself  he can ride again ? His health isnt getting better we are at various hospitals every week yet again , what the hell is he thinking ? We live in a scrapyard of scooters and bikes he thinks are valuable now, what the fuck was he doing ?  I had pencilled in this weekend for a major argument and major sulk only to find him chucking stuff about yesterday and cussing . It would seem somebody beat him there with the cash . Oh dear what a shame.  Then i got the whole saga of how if he fixed this trike he could have made a huge profit on it ...really ? he cant even walk to his workshop and the weeds are 6ft high around it.  So now i have to put up with a major sulk for weeks and he has informed me he will find a trike on the internet somewhere ...AAARRRGGHH 

Tuesday, 27 July 2021


 Im so bored at the moment , lacking motivation , yet another minor league batch of shingles . Just nuisance ones, tiny rash , bit of pain, leg keeps giving way and need sleep . Ho hum only another 12 years till i am eligible for the vaccine ...But my mother says its a fat lot of good shes had shingles more since she had her jab . Oddly both my parents had bad shingles from their 40s so i guess ive been genetically gifted . My dad always got them in his eyes which is serious , my mothers much like mine is on both sides , one side minor the other side shit i need antivirals .  Things you didnt know about shingles . Their have found 30 different variants , yes you can get it on both sides . yes you can get it without a skin rash , internal shingles is hell on earth . You cant give it to other people unless they want to scratch off your scabs and rub themselves against you hence genital herpes getting such a bad press . You can only get shingles if you have had chicken pox .  Doctors and shingles dont really mix  , most dont give a fig, to them its just a petty annoyance that they consider to be just a nuisance for old folks.  Then their are the doctors who have had shingles , they will be flinging antivirals and heavy duty painkillers like smarties at you .  But if youre a long hauler you learn that the painkillers really arent a lot of good and the antivirals are very hit and miss with there own wonderful side effects . I suppose that with all the fuss over Long Covid we can hope that they come up with something a bit more effective for a treatment ...Oh and joy of joys the latest conspiracy theory is that shingles are a sympton of Covid !!   nope covid can trigger shingles because your immune system goes gung ho after any viral sympton even a sore throat .

So now your experts on the worst annoyance on the planet  

Wednesday, 21 July 2021


 So the heat continues , with a whole afternoon of biblical thunder followed by 10 minutes of hail and 10 minutes of deluge . Sat and looked out the window on my birthday and today we have been together 16 years and are hoping to go out for an icecream . 

So heres my wildlife post for you , water your hedgehogs folks they are struggling , they need lots of shallow water and plenty of cat kibble in this weather . If you see them in the daytime they are in difficulties and a cardboard box in the shade with a saucer of cat food is the way to go , just release them at dusk . We have a pair of sex maniacs grunting under the living room window  every evening at the moment plus im not sure how many tiny babies are coming for food and water , i did have one actually swimming and rolling round in the water dish the other night . Snakes need water as well so dont panic if you see them , they have no interest in you . They swim in the empty wheelbarrow sometimes, an empty wheelbarrow filled with water with a pile of bricks or stones at the shallow end makes an excellent temporary bird lido . plus the benefit of caring for your wildlife is you have a virtually slug and snail free garden . 

It must be nearly school time as next door is slaughtering her kids , brings back 

Monday, 19 July 2021


 Theres that point where heat becomes unpleasant and a chore , so it was up at 5am to get all my chores done prior to himself and his morning routine . 4 loads of laundry into todays mountain , sweaty weather in itself just creates mountains of laundry at least its dried like carboard in an hour

So himself decided yesterday that we should go on a tropical trip to the huge auto jumble , grandson and useful son included  , I knew i would struggle with the heat so packed a cool bag full of drinks and covered up well , even with factor 50 cream i still burn and looking round there was a lot of awful crispy people walking round , normally this would be a treat for me i just lose them and look for stuff for the garden , but it was just to hot to look so i kept losing them and going to sit under a tree . The moral of the story is never believe your other half when he tells you , its going to be cloudy with a chance of showers .  im now looking for a parasol just so i can poke folks eyes out . Being an outdoor event the masking only applied to the toilets and they were well managed and organised though it made a pleasant change to see men having to queue , then getting a strop on because they got to the front and didnt have a mask and needed to buy one . 

 Useful son seems to have dropped into yet another contract at the council hes learning how to operate the CCTV room for the town center , hes hoping he gets put through to take the course that gives him the magic bit of paper that ups his wages. Time will tell .

So thats it not a very exciting week on the edge of the fen  

Monday, 12 July 2021


 Well i sort of went into the garden and lost a week thats my only excuse for not being here , between that and the endless hospital and dr stuff we are mixed up in at the moment , then theres yet more fun with the DWP ...ho hum  yeah i guess im just a lazy blogger at the moment . So being up since 3am ive managed to fit this in . The motto of the story is dont let yourself be bullyed into eating a slice of pizza by your partner . I have to say its been a beautiful sunrise , our very noisy magpie family are cackling happily they have just one young one this year and its now fledged and very hungry . I can say it likes liver and onion gravy very much and the endless vermin the cats dump around the front door for my joyful inspection .  Though Miss Penny and her bring a mouse in for company routine is a little taxing , im sure shes just a frustrated mother , she doesnt kill them, just tries to mother them , shes so upset when i retrieve them and pop them over the road into the field . I gather himself has ordered a webcam of some kind so he doesnt have to crane his neck to watch the birds .  He plans to tell me its for my birthday  ..Getting the magpies to accept me is my new hobby i can now get within 5 feet of them and they just talk to me , their love of cat stars is winning them over slowly .

Change of topic , daft shortages . Whats the weird stuff you cant find at the moment . mine is tinned mushrooms and cat stars . I order sacks of cat stars from Amazon and its just took 2 weeks to get the order accepted , i await with interest it turning up . Tinned mushrooms is a mystery , the ever shrinking selection of tins in Lidl is a tad worrying as it will soon be stock up for winter time . I think a trip out to the tin factory may be called for 

Thursday, 1 July 2021


 Im feeling very lazy , i think ive just dodged the shingles bullet this time , all the usual is it isnt it symptons except the rash im really hoping that boosting my B12 with milk keffir is doing the trick . On the subject of milk keffir heres what triggered the idea .  Now my mother guzzles those little bottles of Actimal like theres no tommorrow she has diverticulat and ibs  , meanwhile like most things they give me terrible gut pain and the runs , so being bored i did a bit of research and found milk keffir something that is basically fermented milk , now it would seem this is one of those trendy items you get in the supermarket with weird fruit flavours and a big dent in your pocket , so at £4 a tiny bottle i tried one , disliked the ghastly weird fruit flavour but it did seem to calm my ever irritable bowel . So back to research , and i found a fermented food seller on ebay that had a good write up that sold the starter to make it at home and my little pack  wasnt long in coming , so now i have Kevin the kilner jar sat on the draining board , growing a mug of milk keffir every day , you can make it with skimmed milk and it turns to a yogurt like drink that you strain out and leave the curds to fester in fresh milk for tomorrow. Now it is notorious for bunging people up, but for those of us with the opposite problem this stuff is rather wonderful so long as you eat before taking it in the morning and never take it before bed ???  not sure if you turn into a gremlin if you do  , couldnt find the answer to that one anywhere . It can be made with nut milks if you have lactose intolerance. and there is even a different strain that can be made with plain water. There are all sorts of odd and unusual health claims all over the net , its supposed to help with diabetes control , help with weight loss etc etc , not sure about this but it has helped with the post viral lethargy symptoms so might be worth a try if  you need a vitamin boost    

Friday, 25 June 2021


So im sat here listening to stereo snoring . Useful son is here for the weekend and im not sure who snores the loudest him or his dad . So for a change i got to watch the rather misty sunrise as the rain has finally stopped , day of garden chores it would seem, as the green lushness can get a bit out of hand. So yesterday i set out on a mission to get rid of tons of stuff dumped here by daughter in the vain hope i would car boot it all , So i got sarcastic son to load the car and i was in Morrisons having breakfast by 8.30 with other half , trying to figure how to get the mounds to a charity shop . It may not sound hard but i have to find one that will actually take stock , has vehicle access where i can park right outside the shop and doesnt want to go through everything to pick and choose . It was all good clothing a lot of it tagged or never worn . But there was a vast amount of it . I had managed to get rid of 8 bags of books the previous week at another shop . So other half pointed out theres now a Cat Protection shop inside Morrisons , so as he ate his greasy breakfast i toddled across and asked the manager if she wanted a lot of laundry bags of clothes , she said they arent allowed to take books or DVDs at the moment , she has no idea why .  So i loaded a trolley up with difficulty and struggled  into the store , but i made it , so thats another load gone .  Thought id get my fresh shopping as that was the main reason for even going into town only to find that due to a power fault they couldnt open any of the chillers ..ho hum  i get my online shop but getting fresh stuff or chiller items is no good because the dates are always the next day . So I had to go somewhere else that was quiet ended up at M&S yet again .  Then i was changing the bed in the spare room and decided to rake through the cupboards and it turned out to be a bit of a nightmare , so that was another 8 bags into the back of the car , along with an even bigger pile for the bin . It will take weeks to get rid of the bin rubbish , still cant use the skip without an appointment and only one type of waste at a time , plus they are not allowed to help you and you must go alone .  Hope it doesnt rain and trap me in the house again this week its amazing what i achieve when im bored 

Sunday, 20 June 2021

Garden of Delights

 Well the never ending rain has reduced me to cleaning the oven for amusement , yesterday i started putting the washing yurt away and then ended up raking through the mountains of clothes i own , i dont think anyone would grasp quite how i have so many . But because im not a small girl and i have on average a 4 different sizes wardrobe depending on whether im swollen or not swollen thats a lot of clothes theres even two suitcases of jeans complete with a selection of belts depending on size range . It does get annoying it can vary two sizes from one day to the next .  I have weakened and bought a denim dress this year just because it was huge and i figured id live in it .  But most of my clothes are from pre 2017 in the days before everything went wrong, in fact an awful lot of stuff is over 20 years old . So ive figured that once again all i actually need this year is underwear and a couple of pairs of leggings due to what i have been only fit for gardening. Cant see us going anywhere much this year , his walking is dire and with the DWP hounding us yet again we darent spend a penny , not a peep have we heard and its been 2 weeks since i sent them the parcel and it was signed for at their building .  We await the verdict with interest as im not sure i can cope with all the shit they cause yet again . I did notice as i trawled through the job adverts on line that the local hospice is looking for someone to deal with the DWP for the terminally ill at 20k per annum , a thankless job as most die before they receive a penny from the gits . Someone did tell me that they are having to do this because of bed blocking they are not allowed to send people home who have no income . 

 On a garden plus note , the rain has caused my clematis to go mental and totally hide the line of "valuable" pile of scrap scooters outside the window . Mr Bah Humbug pointed out it needed pruning , dont think so mate you havent touched them in years and on to your funeral pire they will be going such a ray of 

Friday, 18 June 2021

Drippady Doo Dah

 Another 3am wake up , despite earplugs and blackout curtains im still awake at the first crack of dawn . id acheived a freezer defrost and my second cuppa by 6 .  Read all the wonderful factual internet content i could find . it was a tad drizzly when i got up but now it bucketing it down . Ive a cat doing laps because shes convinced that one of the windows or doors has an alternate dimension with sunshine and mice . I had planned to pop the leeks in today but unless it brightens up thats a none starter along with loads of other garden chores i had lined up . I will still venture down for some strawberries before the slugs beat me to them . So now i have to find something to kill the rest of the rainy weather with ...ho hum household chores i suppose , the most despised chores on the planet ...ive a shower room needs scrubbing out and a washing yurt to put away , lifes so exciting these 

Monday, 14 June 2021


So in my role as trip advisor on the regions hospitals off we toddled to Louth  yesterday , ermm on a plus point the carpark has been resurfaced and the parkings currently free .  Id deposited Mr Bah Humbug  on a chair near the door , even getting in the building had been fun , he was on his crutches . im so glad he wasnt on his wheels because the ramp going down into the building was so steep he would have gone straight down it in through the automatic door and the toilet and demolished reception like a giant bowling ball !!  I went to the desk and booked him in and explained that he is on the fall register as the woman looked at me gone out .  We have been told that our hospital group has a fall protocol now , in fact hes flagged up on their systems he was redlined just last week at Emergency no problems . She then launched in to the whole Covid speech could i please leave the building etc , i pointed out he would need a wheelchair and a porter to get into the building and abandoned him .  So im sat in the carpark in the sunshine nattering to another woman whos just abandoned her elderly mother with dementia at reception as well , she pointed out that she had parked near the door so she could keep an eye on it because mother is a wanderer and fast on her feet . Two hours later im still sat there and theres only half a dozen cars left in the carpark . So i texted him and just got a load of abuse , so i gathered it was going well . I finally got the phonecall to pick him up and managed to get the car to the top of the ramp . He emerges on his crutches , staggering and swaying and manages to get up the bleedin ramp and into the car at which point his head exploded .  He does a good rant and was calling me allsorts as passers by swivel their heads in astonishment and i just wait for him to run out of breath , it happens much faster these days and the ramp had nearly killed him .  Best line was that the staff are incompetent sexist bastards.  I did eventually get the whole story out of him .  It seems the receptionist didnt press enter when i booked him in . He couldnt get up being wedged in a small plastic chair .and because hes a bloke theyd parked him right in front of the large screen telly with football on . He hates football with a vengence so after 2 hours of it his head exploded , hed ended up having to shout down the waiting area asking what the hold up was . Turns out hed been marked as a no show at the clinic and the doctor was just packing up to go home , their were no available wheelchairs as they were all in use . The big sign saying there would be a two hour wait didnt apply to his clinic . So it was all his fault for not asking sooner .  His 2 minute appointment consisted off the doctor telling him that he doesnt see anything wrong on his scans and ordering more scans .  Im so glad his brother has taken him fishing today as hes still ranting on 

Tuesday, 8 June 2021


 So this is one of those weird thoughts that come up at 3am posts .  What is happening to us as a race?  Has Covid caused us all to become selfish and uncaring . I know this is happening all over the world . Will the ever scarcer resources just make us all meaner and meaner to each other?  The eugenics policies of our current government are becoming more and more obvious , the care home fiasco when they quite blatently sacrificed so many elderly parents and grandparents ? They were doing there best . Im no anti vaxer  but they do seem to be pushing an agenda rather than its benefits , just to get the older generation to go out and spend loads of money to boost the economy . Everything that is questioned , its nothing to see here folks .  After listening to the ranting of elderly men yesterday , publicly and loudly going on about sending all the foreigners home in front of groups of our local Romanian fieldworkers i was horrified . They come each year , they work in the fields they go home for the winter . Mr Bah humbug pointed out nobody was moaning about foreigners when he was in A&E the staff were every nationality under the sun. So do we now have worthy foreigners and unworthy ones ?    Am I one of the only ones who can see we are heading into a huge famine this winter , crops havent been planted or maintained  in so many countries .  As we hoard our vaccines and cut down on foreign aid  what will the consequence be . Millions more foreigners heading north to safety and food . Will Patel be mining the beaches and sending in the gunboats ?  Just think on what the next year may be like 

Sunday, 6 June 2021


 So i had a heavy days gardening planned yesterday but Mr BH had other plans for us .  Now he has a nosebleed problem always has had , his dad had it his grandad has it the sons have it , its just one blood vessel , his nosebleeds are epic and legendary with no warning far worse than the rest of the family . So id plopped him in the bathroom yesterday morning for his ablutions and pop goes his nose , annoying but nothing unusual , hes quite content to sit there with a jug and a towel and deal with it , then shout me when he needs me . Only he didnt shout for an hour , when i went to him hed lost over a pint but it was steadying down another half an hour and he was down for breakfast and a cuppa . gets to 11.00 and his nose pops again , hes in the bathroom and im getting a tad worried hes filled another jug that hes trying to hide . So i tell him im ringing 111 and he goes mad because he can deal with it , hes very grey and sweating and with a view to his heart problems he needed to see someone . Ring 111 theyre sending paremedics if he gets worse just dial 999 , being very rural they were a while by this time its gushing and were into pint number 3 . ive managed to get him out of the bathroom and on to the bed because he says he doesnt feel well and it has to be bad for him to admit this . The paramedics turn up and an ambulance and he flakes out . I have to say their very efficient and got him hooked up and stuff going into him etc , his blood pressure is through the floor and theyre having a risk assessment deciding whether they need the fire brigade to get him down the stairs but he perked up once the fluids started going in and he managed to get down the stairs and be stretchered out . The whole street is out doing something in the garden by then and hes shouting across to his mate telling him not to panic fishings still on for Monday , as they cart him off into the sunset . Bloody men , nothing but a worry, i had to fetch him home late last night  hes a bit quiet they cant repair the blood vessel again, he needs more minor surgery they just filled him full of fluids and monitored his heart and have told him just ring 999 if it starts again ...guess what he isnt driving and hes not going fishing whether he likes it or not !!!

Best laugh he says is the junior doctor who asked him about his cocaine habit and would he like to be referred to the drug treatment center .

Friday, 4 June 2021


 Have we all escaped to the garden ?  the blogging world is very quiet at the moment except for those of you on the opposite side of the world slipping into winter . Meanwhile ive dropped into the world of fishing and gardening . The veg is very late this year but thriving and ive had a couple of days of grandson on garden slave duties and despite there being snow on the ground when the plum was blossoming its looking like a bumper year . Outside in the real world im not sure im noticing  much difference to our lives from the Covid restrictions . We dont holiday we dont go to cafes or pubs in fact we can pretty much not go anywhere due to his dire walking and breathlessness . MR BH starts another round of hospital visits in a fortnight so hes trying to cram as much fishing in as he can so its fish one day, two days zonked on painkillers life at the moment plus BIL had a bit of bad news health wise so ive now got two of them planning their funerals , I expect they are both being a tad  over the top just yet . Its just wait and see time. I expect they will both fall into the latest government wheeze buzz phrase "managed decline "  which i think is government speak for hurry up and die before you get your pension !  or if you love them as much as i do translates to Die Pleb Die . I have just posted off 600 pages plus of medical records and supporting letters and forms to the cold planes of Hell known as the DWP , we await with interest which of their many ploys for losing it they will go for .  The usual its gone to the wrong department , this one had two different addresses to pick from to send it back to , you always pick the wrong one .  We also usually get we havent received it letters at which point they get a huff on because you have proof of postage and tracking information and announce  they will look for it , usually takes 2 weeks to find it . plus ive cunningly indexed it all stamped his National insurance onto every sheet and stuck pretty coloured tiny post it notes into the juicy bits . You never know i could be wrong they may just continue to pay him his state pittance without problems , but i cant see there has been any improvement in their behavior over the last year , theyre still killing the disabled on a regular basis.  You know lessons learned and the usual bullshit speeches it goes on and on .

Wednesday, 26 May 2021


 Another 3.45 wake up this morning , im always a terrible sleeper no matter how exhausted and how busy i am its bed at 10am awake by 3 , until i get the one day i just zonk and fall asleep for hours  I sleep with earplugs to get that extra hour . Saying that i can sleep anywhere in any position if its a sleepy day . Im hoping for a sleepy day today as its fishing . Ive read the paper and done the quiet chores im on my second cuppa and the eggs are boiling for pack up . I await with interest what state Mr BH gets up in and the decision if he wants to go or not it shows signs of being a much drier and sunnier day today so i live in hopes .

So lets talk Cummings , its rather like a bad comedy at the moment .  The Lying cheating scum in charge can do as they like , theres no opposition theres nobody else in the Tory Party gagging for the job of being in charge . The UK is bobbing about like a rudderless ship while we laugh at the latest playground spat . I rather expected Wanksock to burst into "liar liar pants on fire " when he was corned by the press yesterday .  Boris merely slugs down another Chuck A Mucka organic cocktail enjoying his notoriety as Pleb Killer in Chief . Ive come to the conclusion that we have the government we deserve . Its all a bit fall of the roman empire without the empire existing except in the Tories minds .  What next Boris biting the heads off kittens in a live broadcast?  while the Britains got Talent watchers cheer him on . "Thats our Boris , one of the lads"  

Monday, 24 May 2021

For A Change

Another lush green morning with lots of rain , the gardens loving all the rain . The cats however are not , yesterday our very vocal elderly cat  could be heard getting closer and closer at speed , she ran in as if her tail was on fire, it was hailing icy bullets and she was having none of that . Giant hailstones anyone?

 You know the say nothing if youve nothing nice to say mantra ? Sod it . Lets talk Boris and the wedding. I gather we must save a date in July 2022. So mistress en titre Carrie is going to drag the git to the altar . Is it to give her a whole year to go Bridezilla ? or is she planning to spod out another kid shortly . I should imagine that most of the posh wedding folks are hiding cringing in the bushes hoping that the Wayne and Waynetta Slob of the moneyed classes dont call them . After all theyre hardly going to pay the bill are they , will it be a ticket only job  where you pay to attend?  Dyson providing the dress and JCB doing the catering. possibly Tony Blair on guitar ? 

 Well i suppose he an aging tomcat these days so she stands a chance of being his last wife though i wouldnt count on it , however shes supposedly a tad fiery so a vasectomy at dawn with a blunt bread knife is always a possibility and could be very entertaining for the rest of us . Cant wait and why do i keep thinking about My Big Fat Gypsy Wedding ? with of course environmental credentials and eco themed everything and Dilyn the dog in a matching tuxedo .   

Sunday, 23 May 2021

Odd Day

 I was up at 5am after getting cramp and ending up on the bedroom floor in a heap , so now i have a bruised shoulder to add to my trivial woes . First thing on booting up the puter i find a wonderful email promising me 18 extra large African cocks and half asleep opened the chicken email that i thought my mate had sent me ....errr it wasnt chickens !!  I did exercise more caution with my other emails .

By 7am everybody was still snoring so i snuck out to the car boot , it was heaving and the wind was bitter , didnt buy a thing other than my veg for the week . Got home and took a look at the sore shoulder only to find ive a lump that Quasimodo would be proud of and its starting to throb nicely , this will cramp my style today as i had an appointment with my hedgetrimmers , but just to make me feel less guilty its now turning nice and black and spitting with rain . Oh joy ive 4 loads of washing out .

Maybe its just safer to take to my bed for the day after all its not even 10am yet 

Tuesday, 18 May 2021

Not Fishing

 Today was going to be my first days fishing this year , BIL has a full weeks work this week so MR BH had the major grumps .  But then he got worse when i said i would only go to the little pit locally , not feeling it, i didnt want to be miles from home if anything goes wrong . So this morning hes got up on toddler mode and has announced hes not going anywhere . No loss to me i can potter in the garden , plenty to be doing if it doesnt chuck biblical hailstones at us . Still tons of replanting to tackle , though i did laugh , i bought some Lidl seed strips for a scented border plopped them in the darkest corner of the garden , covered them in compost and then the heavens opened . Went back the following day and all the compost and seeds had gone , so now its going to be a mystery surprise where they appear  Gradually replanting all my tubs and pots hadnt realised i had so many so pottered down to Aldi with himself for some cheapy compost having used all that i had from the old compost heaps . Now i can only use the small trolleys because if i put the bags in a large one i cant get them out , so im laden up and i get to the tills and im struggling the trolley wont steer and the guy on the tills wasnt exactly much help and a very nice gentleman my own age came to give me a hand . To make it worse the ramp from the store is a tad steep so two of us struggled to hold it , the gentlemen said he would give me a hand to get them in my boot . When he got to the boot he looked a tad puzzled by other half not getting out or helping . When i opened the boot and he spotted the crutches and wheelchair i guess he twigged because he turned to me and said " well i guess he still makes a good cuppa" . When i thanked him and got in the car the steam was coming out of Mr BHs ears . All i got all the way home was sarky comments about Fwends . I did point out that how is it different that he has to have help ?

Friday, 14 May 2021


Im having a severely bored phase , despite the never ending gardening  which will start to lessen in the next couple of weeks , life is just tedium . I sometimes think i will go to my grave surrounded by shit and endless washing , Mr BH had a bit of a bad phase after his second jab . Today is my first freedom day for 3 weeks , you know hes not been well when he hasnt fished for 3 weeks . BIL has come to the rescue and off they have pottered to the fishing pit . Freedom day is to be spent trying to make head nor tale of the new DWP renewal of PIP form its not the condition report side of it everything has got worse , its his medical side of things , i have 5 years of medical records to go through to cross reference all the exact dates, umpteen medical letters from umpteen consultants to copy and link to the exact points in his medical notes , all because they now want exact dates at which each medical  condition started it would be easy if it was just one but ive realised that theres over 20 different things that are wrong with him ...AAARRRGGGHHH . 

Im also now a prisoner in the house because theyve upped one of my medications , this means i darent drive because it gives me blurred vision and dizzy spells , Ask  GP it would seem that cant be happening and it must be stress, funny read the leaflet in the box it warns about this.  I was in for blood tests last week and have had a load more this week only to have the health assistant going on about had i considered anxiety medication?  What to make me more compliant and not question every aspect of our medical care , musnt remind that theyve nearly killed my partner on a couple of occasions or that people who struggle to use their hands have a big problem with Ask GP ? . Im sorry i loath  health professionals who judge and the bleedin have you considered online mindfulness classes types . You just know they have a house painted white with inspirational quotes everywhere and a yoga mat in the corner gathering dust 

Monday, 10 May 2021


 So finally into the ground my pink fir apples and orkney blue spuds have gone 6 weeks later than usual but it wont hurt them , nature doesnt care what day i plant them and the rain meant that i could get the shovel into the ground , i have bent the shovel however , today i will be mainly hobbling and getting on with Mr BHs new improved DWP forms , its the new PIP renewal form that there is no help with , we cant find a single help agency that has tackled this one and after a read through ive realised that yet again every question is to try and trip you up . It has the usual threatening tone that the disabled look forward to . In normal times this would have to be returned within 28 days which wouldnt give you time to collect all the medical paperwork required .  Ho hum does anything change , it appears that they are only sending these out at the moment to those who had to drag them to a tribunal to even get PIP in the first place.  Its not helped by the fact that i know Mr BH will make my life a living hell if i dont fill it in correctly , im not sure what part of degenerative condition the DWP dont get and once again theyre harping on about what treatment and surgeries you have had to improve your condition . I wish there were treatments and surgeries that would help him but at the moment their isnt until they can do something about his vascular problem , the one they asked him to consider palliative care for!! 

Thursday, 6 May 2021

Let It Snow

Plagues of huge hailstones seem to be the latest weather weirdness, it looked like we had snowfall yesterday morning , today the sun is shining brightly on a really hard frost . Pottered out to vote in the local elections  yesterday not a soul did i see it was rather fun playing hopscotch over the dog turds spattered over the paths ....why cant folks just take their dog turds home ?

Garden work continues between showers , still reconstructing the garden swing . I was told to burn it and order a new one , till his lordship found out that it was £400 upwards for a new one . Its taking a lot of repairing , im really not safe on ladders ,. But hey ho needs must .

Had to venture into the dark cavern of Morrisons at Lincoln yesterday after the last miserable home delivery they provided , all my veg and salad was mouldy and out of date .  All of the frozen stuff was missing . i know they refund promptly but they have removed the messaging facility on the facebook pages and the website .  I hate the Lincoln store with its narrow aisles and way over your head shelves . The point on still ordering online is that i have to shop alone and i cant lift and reach stuff that is heavy plus i cant use a large trolley as i cant reach and lift stuff out of the bottom . I was on mission pigs liver yesterday one of the things you cant get online, the local butchers only have it now and then , so thats topped my supply up . I await the weekends morrisons delivery with interest . We are slowly turning into a food desert here in rural Lincolnshire. .Lots of glossy farm shops and organic wonder shops for the tourists but the locals cant afford to shop at them and the Coop is so expensive its scary