Negative November

 This is the bit of the year that i hate when what little freedom i get is drying up , one last Jumble Sale next weekend i may well buy everything just for the sake of something to look at ...lol .. The whole world has gone xmas tat im afraid . Cherie your the only person for whom this is allowed , it is your reason for living ..lol                                                                                                                                                                     Meanwhile the mucking around with my tablets is proving fun although ive managed more than 4 hours of sleep several nights  , i even got an epic 6 hours a couple of times only to wake up to someone shouting me for his morning ablutions then spending the day with him griping that the house was a tip because their were two cups in the sink .AAARRRGGHHH Its back to the winter chores of endless condensation and mould cleaning everyday .  I also keep bursting into tears for weird random reasons , yesterday i ached so much that i burst into tears because i havent had a bath in years , it would be so amazing to just sink into the heat , we have a perfectly usable disabled wet room but heigh ho , i then remembered we couldnt afford to have a bath in the house due to the water meter , plus a bath goes cold very rapidly in a unheated bathroom.  Then i got up this morning and im weepy again because he asked me what i wanted for xmas and all i could think of was somebody to cook for me and just do a days chores which got me ...Bloody silly cow                                                                                                                                           Two weeks and i change my  medication again ...i can see this is going to be a fun xmas 

Never

 Yesterday i ventured into the depths of Lincoln , just needed a bit of bulk stuff and to get the things  missing from the fortnightly Morrisons order.  Well thats me not going back this year it was dreadful , every shop packed with coughing christmas heads , very few masks in sight , certainlly not a bit of social distancing anywhere , Covid must be over. hand sanitiser is a thing of the past its all either empty or hidden away in the depths somewhere. Theyve revamped B&N so theres now no frozen section just an aisle of tins and booze and a couple of chilled freezers , i did at least find some large yellow sticker pizzas for a £1 so that will keep the menfolk happy , theyre not in the shape of a xmas tree maybe thats why they are cheap ? It got to the stage i was ready to just chuck my basket and walk out, the shop had ground to a halt with just two tills . They have signs everywhere asking for staff , but theyre known for being a dreadful employer locally so im not surprised , Now the freezer shop has gone i cant see a reason to go back again .                                                                                                                                               Managed to get round Lidl and get a trolley full of bottled water that should last well into January and a few bits like a couple of packs of cooking bacon that can be split down for the freezer .     

  Its got to be bad when Farmfoods is a little haven of sanity on its own little carpark amid all the student housing , its huge and it wasnt busy at all . Other half however had given me a whole list of crap foodstuffs he required , Chinese Ribs , turkey Kievs , spicy god knows what and greasy god knows what basically it has filled the freezer with stuff i cant eat . Though it will cheer son up i managed to get apple juice which for some reason there appears to be a local famine of . Sometimes i think that the huge freezer contains only oven chips and frozen veg for me...lol

Then the purpose of the visit to Morrisons , they to have undergone a revamp , now Morrisons has always been where your mum and granny shopped , you park dad in the cafe  with a cup of tea and do your shopping . Other half had his heart set on his annual morrisons xmas dinner with a mug of tea its been advertised everywhere . the cafe looked curiously empty but there was a big queue , so i parked himself and joined it , i thought there was something odd when there was nothing i could drink, just overpriced bottled water, the drinks machines had gone all they had was overpriced slushies milkshakes and fresh orange.  They had now got a Barista bar just beyond the till with a huge queue again, with loads of baffled pensioners  and a very irate girl doing the serving ...errr most pensioners want a cup of tea or a coffee not a god knows what in a cup with half a cup of nasty coffee under it .  I finally got to the till to order his xmas dinner and shes doing the whole i cant understand you youre wearing a mask and the steam is coming out of my ears by now .  Sorry we havent got any of the xmas menu ...ffs  would we like half a breakfast because they have run out of most things . I just turned around and walked away , to get a right royal rollicking from himself who thought it was all my fault .  So i parked him back in the car and had to go do my last bit of shopping that was missed off the order this weekend , i didnt get any of my meat or veg this week .  They have installed a whole row of little kiosks selling hot food , none of which i would be interested in.  The meat section has shrunk but i got what i needed and some packs of yellow sticker mince . Got to the tills and theyd been revamped as well its nearly all self service now there were just 2 real tills with a girl trying to force you to use them , those of us queuing were blocking the aisles so she was a tad stressed , having a basket i was a prime target , but i had all yellow sticker items so no point even trying the self serve it just doesnt get it .  I do think the world is trying to do away with us oldies   

Busy

 Lifes always throwing you curveballs , daughter has been a tad poorly with Covid somewhat baffled as shes classed as vulnerable as shes currently on chemo , doesnt go out and works from home , suspected it was a gift from grandson who has had man flu for a few days but didnt test positive, but hed been here with us and we are all fine.  Shes over the worst of it but still seems pretty grim , she only has 80% lung function on a good day so it may be a while , good old 111 wanted her to go to hospital  but she wasnt having it and got her mate whos a nurse practioner to pop round in her hazmat gear and have a listen to her chest . She couldnt have the jabs because of her autoimmune problems . So she did say well at least thats my immunity now boosted up . I was doing nursy from home online nagging her to stay upright and keep walking a bit if you can , loads of fluids and gargle with that infamous concoction of Lemsip and whisky. Kids even adult ones are always a worry .  On the other end of Covid OH keeps getting emails from the doctor to book his booster , but on ringing theres no spaces , it would seem the third jab is being rationed out to GPS in this area , they get a llimited delivery  or nothing so even they have no idea whats going on .

Ordinary Days

 So its been a busy week , lots of hospital with himself including yet another transfusion day when i drop him at the door and then pop to Tescos , but for a change i got a phone call to say he was going to be 5 hours . So what do you do, theres not the money for fuel to go home then come back to pick him up . So i trawled around the out of town shops in uphill Lincoln for something to do , it was wonderful to not be constantly clock watching or having the scowling presence tapping his foot at how long ive been in a shop . Did i spend loads ? Well i visited the barnardos toy shop and was horrified to see they had 4 grubby barbies in a bag for £20 , they could at least have cleaned them and brushed their hair for that price .   Tons of stuff but for the most part for a couple of quid more you could have bought new .  Giant Tesco for a tiddle and cat food , its increasingly hard to find the cheap and nasty own brand tins that old cat likes but did manage to get 3 packs it was all they had . I did kill a fair bit of time wandering round in the dry looking at xmas jumpers and sparkly frocks . Then on to The Lincolnshire Hospice Shop , sadly nothing i could afford in there plus it was all fat bird on a cruise type garments . For a giggle i even visited the Sue Ryder Temple in a huge retail unit , noxiously expensive but it does do some fairly decent furniture , among which they had a glorious 1930s bedroom suite veneered birdseye maple all curves made me wish i had a bigger house and a much bigger budget lol £150 . But the one plus on my day was good old B&N they were having a garden centre sale to make load for a lorry load of xmas trees , so i blew my budget on sad looking plants , christmas roses already sprouting , loads of grey untidy pinks at 10p each , all stuff that can overwinter and be planted in the spring . which i managed to smuggle home without him noticing ..When I finally picked him up , his grumpiness knew no bounds . So what have you being doing all day? Reading my book on the industrial estate . Hed given me £3 for dinner so its a good job he didnt hear my rattling stomach after all id sooner buy plants 

Dr Google

 Now im sure youre aware that we struggle with our GPs or rather our lack of GPs , suddenly they have turned into efficient GPs they have dragged themselves up to the level of normal GPs because they are undergoing a care standards inspection at the moment . Its announced on the Surgery website asking for comments from patients , shant bother i should imagine theres some interesting stories for them already . Anyway its not the fault of the actual Drs its the company that owns the practice , its only interest is farming money out of the patients . Before Covid there were obvious problems , during Covid it has been appalling . Our GPs are very honest with you if you can actually get to see them they admit that all they can do is work to the latest directive sent by the company . 6 thousand patients 4 doctors so they have reached the maximum patients at which point they opened another surgery round the corner same set up so they can milk another 6000 patients .  Anyway we can get some very dodgy locums at times but i actually talked to a sentient one the other day , not much of a conversation as she pointed out shes allocated 2 minutes per call , my annual blood tests are appalling, i promptly pointed out that i need B12 injections to function otherwise i cant think and keep falling over and my other medications dont work properly , but they stopped testing for this about 4 years ago so therefore i was cured because they lost my notes . She actually agreed to do further blood tests whoopee . Got a call back a few days later my B12  and vitamin D are through the floor pick the tablets up at the desk . retest in a couple of months . But the biggest giggle they also sent me another version of my regular medication , this is what i was put on by the hospital but it costs 12p to much so they stopped it and gave me the cheaper version and ive struggled ever since . Im sure this is all just because of the care standards investigation being ongoing ...but i can hope this is a longer term improvement  

Political Friday

 Lets have a giggle at the latest sea of shit our Glorious Leader has created . Not content with COP97 or whatever it was ,being the biggest show of hypocrites on tour ever .  How many private planes?  How many huge motorcades . Ocean liner hotels moored on the Clyde , beggars belief really doesnt it . All the little people getting fines for putting a crisp bag in the wrong bin , meanwhile the carbon footprint of these privileged idiots blackens the world . The Boris spokesman , pointing out his plane used eco fuel and they were paying a carbon offset for using it , bugger the offset does it make it better that they will plant a sapling in Scotland so his laziness could jet home for a dinner and jolly with his mates . He couldnt keep his eyes open and appeared pissed at one stage . If they all payed an offset for this fiasco Wee Jimmy Sturgen will be ruling the Great Northern Forest in a few years . im seriously thinking of running round on my travels with a bag of conkers and acorns and sycamore keys doing my own offset everywhere i go .

Then we get to the real elephant in the room , corruption .  A minor player in the Tory scheme of look over there has been caught with his hand in the till . Half a million of money for services rendered in his pocket , blatantly bribes taken for services rendered to a corporation he was a lobbyist for . then Boris decides to do away with the standards committee that caught him and replace them with a bunch of his mates, forces all his party to vote yes for this spiffing idea and then it went very viral and the smell of burning tyres on this  u turn created its own disaster . I think the fact that the MP involved was getting a mere 30 day suspension from Parliament  over the matter is more disgusting . He has now however fallen on his sword and resigned , causing a by election . 

Now if i look into my crystal ball , i wouldnt be surprised if Glorious Leader decides to chuck a General Election into the equation , his ego being what it is . His logic could be that he is up before the ethics committee , he has been dodging them for months over his gold plated decorating scandal , At most hes looking at a 30 day suspension , which means he could spend xmas in the Caribbean. The likely hood that his local party would deselect him is virtually nil  . So back in the New Year with an even bigger majority , business as usual .  I do think that Ego is the one thing that will bring him down in the end .  Though didnt we once execute a king and turn Puritan  over corruption , or has that part of History been cancelled in schools?