Sometimes I slip into the grey fields , for the most parts I wander the footpath on the edge and I have for all my adult life . Spectacular drops off into it were after the birth of my son 22 years ago , I really was looking for the numbers on the side of his head it wasnt a game it was post natal depression on a grand scale , hallucinations the works . Not helped by a totally indifferent partner of the pull yourself together frame of mind . Lovely doctor helped me through that .
Then I had two car accidents in the space of three months and was having panic attacks every time I got in a car . Medication really helped that at the time .
My dad dying and my divorce was helped along by some lovely ladies at Stoneham who did a lot of work with me and helped me get away from my vile ex .
So every now and then I have a nasty wobble , got up this morning and cant face work , so im turning my phone off , usually my trigger is exhaustion , which is fair enough, im working hideous hours and Mr BH isnt sleeping so hes keeping me awake ,I plan to go back to bed and snore if i can . But Mr Bah Humbug has pointed out its my mother that has set me off , he knows me to well . We had a real gritted teeth conversation yesterday .
Why havent you rung me for three weeks?
( thought to myself , because youre never at home or asleep pissed in front of the TV , have you never thought to ring me? shes rung me twice in 10 years )
Because ive been at work all hours mother
Its not good enough , do you know Margarets daughter rings her every day ?
Yes mother
Marys in the hospital liver failure , shes got to give up drinking or she will die , what am i supposed to do shes not going to want to go on days out is she ?
(code for days out is use your free bus pass , to go to another town , shop till opening time then sit and get leathered while having a pensioner special lunch )
Maybe you could both give up drinking together?
Thats your trouble , you chose to live a miserable life . You should be more selfish and live for yourself . Get rid of all those useless hangers on you live with .
AND THEN SOMETHING JUST SNAPPED
Do you mean like you got rid of me mother ?
Here we go, more of your imaginary bullshit , making up stories about your uncle so you can cash in like those folks on the TV . You had potential and look where its got you . You have done nothing with your life that i can be proud of . Your dragging your daughter down , she'll soon leave you and get on with her life , shes just like me. I bet that idle creature you live with is black thats why you dont bring him here .
(deafening silence)
Well its good to see that your feeling well mother. Goodbye !!
I shant ring her for 4 weeks this time !!!!
And I must add my daughter is lovely and nothing like her damned grandmother!!
Monday, 31 October 2016
Saturday, 29 October 2016
The X Word
The Original Working title for this post was ..Get Your Tits Out Tressy but then after my first cuppa that didnt seem quite such a good idea .
I do feel im rather neglecting the blog at the moment , but this being a 6 week month one of the vagaries of my job , ive run out of money for fuel to go to work and dont get paid till Friday ..ho hum . Give it another month till I get to see if all the extra work has paid off at all , it costs me £25 a day in fuel to work in Hull plus bridge fees of £3 but saying that it cost me £25 for a day of coastal tour ,involving Boston, skegness, Mablethorpe and all the little villages in between . I worked endless hours in August and they paid me £35 for fuel .
So on to the good stuff , last week Mr BH was watching the evening local news and it had come up with armed police at a local address , arrests etc . Try not to laugh , it was his brothers house!!! We still havent a clue what has being going on , but bear in mind this is the brother that asked us where he could get a cheap cooker as he needed to cook some ketamine . Mr BH chimes up with , at least he should be out to take me fishing in the spring..lol
Then theres that X word , its getting to the season I loath, Commercial Xmas , the xmas heads are getting their vibe on , we should give a prize for the first xmas earrings spotted. But what can I say the cheap mass produced turkey is sat in the freezer , just because Farmfoods were selling them off from Easter ..
The other morning being half term , I was forced to sit through children's TV with the munchkin , talk about consumer driven , it was just advert after advert for cheap tacky rubbish that you must buy , I notice theyve been forced to include the actual price in the advert in small hidden print , but yet again thats a bit of a con , because its the RRP price , so you can convince yourself when its cheaper in Asda youve got a bargain . Do people really fall for this ?
Poundland keeps running out of toys , is this a sign this year is going to be an austerity xmas for a lot more people . But for those of us that remember circling all the toys in the catalogue at Xmas hoping that your parents got the hint its not that different, we asked for everything but were happy with what we actually got . Kids arent daft , tell them your skint its better than running up debt trying to please other people who you can never please
Case in point the recent auction haul included a whole box of unused xmas gifts bought for granny , ive now got enough posh Xmas socks to last for years , everybody who came to the house has a new umbrella. Xmas jumpers galore , lots of new in packet damart clothing , tons of unused hankies , smellies etc etc etc .
So heres a little look at xmas past , Scary Spice doll now worthless and Tressy from the 70s not so worthless .
I do feel im rather neglecting the blog at the moment , but this being a 6 week month one of the vagaries of my job , ive run out of money for fuel to go to work and dont get paid till Friday ..ho hum . Give it another month till I get to see if all the extra work has paid off at all , it costs me £25 a day in fuel to work in Hull plus bridge fees of £3 but saying that it cost me £25 for a day of coastal tour ,involving Boston, skegness, Mablethorpe and all the little villages in between . I worked endless hours in August and they paid me £35 for fuel .
So on to the good stuff , last week Mr BH was watching the evening local news and it had come up with armed police at a local address , arrests etc . Try not to laugh , it was his brothers house!!! We still havent a clue what has being going on , but bear in mind this is the brother that asked us where he could get a cheap cooker as he needed to cook some ketamine . Mr BH chimes up with , at least he should be out to take me fishing in the spring..lol
Then theres that X word , its getting to the season I loath, Commercial Xmas , the xmas heads are getting their vibe on , we should give a prize for the first xmas earrings spotted. But what can I say the cheap mass produced turkey is sat in the freezer , just because Farmfoods were selling them off from Easter ..
The other morning being half term , I was forced to sit through children's TV with the munchkin , talk about consumer driven , it was just advert after advert for cheap tacky rubbish that you must buy , I notice theyve been forced to include the actual price in the advert in small hidden print , but yet again thats a bit of a con , because its the RRP price , so you can convince yourself when its cheaper in Asda youve got a bargain . Do people really fall for this ?
Poundland keeps running out of toys , is this a sign this year is going to be an austerity xmas for a lot more people . But for those of us that remember circling all the toys in the catalogue at Xmas hoping that your parents got the hint its not that different, we asked for everything but were happy with what we actually got . Kids arent daft , tell them your skint its better than running up debt trying to please other people who you can never please
Case in point the recent auction haul included a whole box of unused xmas gifts bought for granny , ive now got enough posh Xmas socks to last for years , everybody who came to the house has a new umbrella. Xmas jumpers galore , lots of new in packet damart clothing , tons of unused hankies , smellies etc etc etc .
So heres a little look at xmas past , Scary Spice doll now worthless and Tressy from the 70s not so worthless .
Thursday, 20 October 2016
Light Relief
So we will delve further into this weeks auction mega haul , ive now managed to get it down to 8 boxes after a huge donation to the church was dropped off . Now this was the little box among all the other stuff that I actually wanted , this will take me weeks to sought through and squirrel away .
We have a box of filthy dusty , that nobody could be bothered with . But came as a part of a bunch of wool and sewing machines and other strange .
Be still my beating heart, its yet more knitting patterns in fact loads of 50s and 60s dolly ones . Toy patterns taken from 50 s and 60s magazines etc etc .
One I have just the dolly for , but with my knitting abilities may bear no resemblance to this ..lol
And for all you vintage frock fans theres a nice pile of childrens dressmaking and ladies from the 50s , many are still in the postal envelopes unopened , some are used and incomplete but i may have a use for the covers from those . Yet to be sorted through properly , I can see this current haul taking weeks to go through properly .
So thats my light relief for the week , as i toddle off to the depths of Hull to escape the endless American election coverage , which goes to prove they have as much choice as we do in who leads us . Theyve been given a choice between an Orangutang and someone so slippery they make Tony Blair look honest . I think its time to stick Putin on the ballot sheets and just give up.
We have a box of filthy dusty , that nobody could be bothered with . But came as a part of a bunch of wool and sewing machines and other strange .
Be still my beating heart, its yet more knitting patterns in fact loads of 50s and 60s dolly ones . Toy patterns taken from 50 s and 60s magazines etc etc .
One I have just the dolly for , but with my knitting abilities may bear no resemblance to this ..lol
And for all you vintage frock fans theres a nice pile of childrens dressmaking and ladies from the 50s , many are still in the postal envelopes unopened , some are used and incomplete but i may have a use for the covers from those . Yet to be sorted through properly , I can see this current haul taking weeks to go through properly .
So thats my light relief for the week , as i toddle off to the depths of Hull to escape the endless American election coverage , which goes to prove they have as much choice as we do in who leads us . Theyve been given a choice between an Orangutang and someone so slippery they make Tony Blair look honest . I think its time to stick Putin on the ballot sheets and just give up.
Monday, 17 October 2016
On The Naughty Step
I went to a sale on Saturday and now im in the doghouse ...lol
I had to ring home to ask for the van and it was still full of all of Mr Bah Humbugs fishing gear , it generally lives there all summer and he was only saying the other day he needed the boys to put it away for him , there was no rush , I didnt have to pick up till Monday , but as men do hes got a bit of a monk on with me . Its not just that , i'm supposed to be running everything down for the builders coming at the end of the month .
But hey the sale was cheap , what can I say , so today we went to pick up and filled the van to the roof , he was so mardy he wanted everything out of the van today , so ive had a fun time in the sunshine and biting wind . Ive had to be quite ruthless, mainly due to lack of storage , so heres the first couple of lots .
Loads of weird wool , two big bags . Lots of part wool cones . And a mystery box of what looks like rather grubby balls of string , its not its multi threaded cotton something but im not sure of its purpose ...ideas anyone ?
Then I sort of bought a load of toys , OK maybe theres a few dolls in there , a lonely Tressy and a few little friends , but theres also a Sindy caravan and stables , lots of Sindy furniture , tons of Sindy accesories , loads of dolls clothes ...etc etc . There was a load of modern toys as well that are going to the charity shop
, this will take forever to sort out and clean , so i may have to hide it ...lol
But ive been ruthless the vans half full with stuff to go to the charity shop , at least till my daughter comes home and says the van contents are stuff that will sell ...lol
I had to ring home to ask for the van and it was still full of all of Mr Bah Humbugs fishing gear , it generally lives there all summer and he was only saying the other day he needed the boys to put it away for him , there was no rush , I didnt have to pick up till Monday , but as men do hes got a bit of a monk on with me . Its not just that , i'm supposed to be running everything down for the builders coming at the end of the month .
But hey the sale was cheap , what can I say , so today we went to pick up and filled the van to the roof , he was so mardy he wanted everything out of the van today , so ive had a fun time in the sunshine and biting wind . Ive had to be quite ruthless, mainly due to lack of storage , so heres the first couple of lots .
Loads of weird wool , two big bags . Lots of part wool cones . And a mystery box of what looks like rather grubby balls of string , its not its multi threaded cotton something but im not sure of its purpose ...ideas anyone ?
Then I sort of bought a load of toys , OK maybe theres a few dolls in there , a lonely Tressy and a few little friends , but theres also a Sindy caravan and stables , lots of Sindy furniture , tons of Sindy accesories , loads of dolls clothes ...etc etc . There was a load of modern toys as well that are going to the charity shop
, this will take forever to sort out and clean , so i may have to hide it ...lol
But ive been ruthless the vans half full with stuff to go to the charity shop , at least till my daughter comes home and says the van contents are stuff that will sell ...lol
Wednesday, 12 October 2016
My Kingdom For A Life
Im back...well just for today . Im currently working in Hull doing sick cover , so full time then my own job on top . Im there all next week as well , not a bad thing . I do need the money, but its killing me , i just seem to work sleep and scrape the surface of the domestic chores . Its the endless data entry that does my head in , ive a full day of office chores today on my single day off , there was a phone conversation with my boss which i think went quite well, this was at 9am Monday morning
We havent received your data file yet . ....
Thats right im just making a cuppa then im off to get on with it .
But that will take most of the day
Well I worked till 5 on Saturday
So why hasnt the data file been completed ?
Because on Sundays , I take the day off to have massive amounts of sex !!! just to keep my strength up otherwise I wont be able to face another 60 hour week at way below minimum wage !!!
He hung up, and i havent heard a thing from him since , not even the daily whine text .
The reality of my Sunday , was endless mounds of washing , cooking for the thankless and trying to get a nana nap while Mr Bah Humbug was telling me a weeks worth of gossip.
Its not good im missing jumble sale season , endless auctions and thrift shops , i need my life back
We havent received your data file yet . ....
Thats right im just making a cuppa then im off to get on with it .
But that will take most of the day
Well I worked till 5 on Saturday
So why hasnt the data file been completed ?
Because on Sundays , I take the day off to have massive amounts of sex !!! just to keep my strength up otherwise I wont be able to face another 60 hour week at way below minimum wage !!!
He hung up, and i havent heard a thing from him since , not even the daily whine text .
The reality of my Sunday , was endless mounds of washing , cooking for the thankless and trying to get a nana nap while Mr Bah Humbug was telling me a weeks worth of gossip.
Its not good im missing jumble sale season , endless auctions and thrift shops , i need my life back
Tuesday, 4 October 2016
Boring Tuesday
What can I say ? Ive nearly ground to a standstill , most of my work for this month has been cancelled after a stunning paperwork screw up by the office , that means of course that there will be not much pay coming my way yet again . Ive had an interesting conversation with the bank about the amount they would like me to pay them off their arrears and the amount theyre actually going to be getting . Nice girl , didnt quite grasp that im well aware of the circumstances im in and that they cant CCJ me for less than £500 . but hey ho past caring, theyve had my statements of income , it will still hopefuly be cleared by xmas , we have food and a roof over our heads and legal vehicles what else matters...lol
So ive been catching up on chores ,not bothering in the house because of the mess weve got to look forward to later in the month , its slow doing the garden stuff but i know that it doesnt take a lot to end with the back pain from hell , so im pacing myself and trying to do one job a day . Today was top up the front door planters with salvaged fishtank gravel , they look sort of odd but colourful , I can live with that .
Spent most of Sunday sticking dolly into a dress made from 25p clothing salvage , due to everybody but sarcastic son leaving the building , still got the hand sewing part to do but she looks so much nicer without her plastic bits hanging out . Still my favourite dolly , im sure i saw a nice lacy cardigan in the big bag of vintage dolly clothes from the jumble .
Managed to swap a big bag of eating apples for a huge bag of Bramleys , now have to motivate myself to use them , apple pie has been requested , but its that time of the year where i find motivation a huge problem every year ,so im sat staring at them thinking really do i have to ?
I think its the thought of another hospital trip with Young Baldrick on Friday , I should have a huge sign on my forehead saying mug , im hoping he behaves a little better this time as its just a scan
So ive been catching up on chores ,not bothering in the house because of the mess weve got to look forward to later in the month , its slow doing the garden stuff but i know that it doesnt take a lot to end with the back pain from hell , so im pacing myself and trying to do one job a day . Today was top up the front door planters with salvaged fishtank gravel , they look sort of odd but colourful , I can live with that .
Spent most of Sunday sticking dolly into a dress made from 25p clothing salvage , due to everybody but sarcastic son leaving the building , still got the hand sewing part to do but she looks so much nicer without her plastic bits hanging out . Still my favourite dolly , im sure i saw a nice lacy cardigan in the big bag of vintage dolly clothes from the jumble .
Managed to swap a big bag of eating apples for a huge bag of Bramleys , now have to motivate myself to use them , apple pie has been requested , but its that time of the year where i find motivation a huge problem every year ,so im sat staring at them thinking really do i have to ?
I think its the thought of another hospital trip with Young Baldrick on Friday , I should have a huge sign on my forehead saying mug , im hoping he behaves a little better this time as its just a scan
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