Xmas To Go

So all i need to buy now is sprouts , everything is done and dusted bought over the last few months a bit week by week ,  meanwhile my annual xmas morbidness has set in , so this is the last post before the great event , i know you all enjoy the annual turkey fest so i will let you all enjoy .
Mr BH did comment that if we won the lottery would i feel any better about the season , probably not , it just isnt there for me , its a void emotion .
As a child there was nothing to look forward to just endless drunken antics from my mother ,  having to pretend that you were having a great time , stick a smile on for the relatives as you were wheeled out in your ghastly party frock .
When the kids were small i made the effort and stuck that smile on again , watched all that fun  , they never did without , we wernt well off but the excitement was there for them.
So having stuck that smile on all my life ive reached that stage where i dont even try anymore i just hibernate till its over with , cook a big dinner and watch them all enjoy it .
The highlight of xmas thus far is winning a couple of little prizes , a bottle of prosecco that i dont drink , four pairs of socks ever useful and 10 dvds of classic movies when i have no way of playing them ...lol...the kids inform me they have a DVD player in a box somewhere so thats me sorted .
So Merry Xmas may you all have the Xmas you all hope for and desire see you after Boxing Day