Jimmy 2

 I will probably upset someone with this one , cant say im worried about that . 

Its as if good old Trump is starting to give off major Jimmy Saville vibes , if your overseas reader look him up . He was a monster hiding in plain site for many years , everybody knew there was something off about him , many knew exactly what was happening but because of his fame and fortune just kept quiet. He had a lot of people he payed off , but he also collected the dirt on other people and used it to keep folks quiet. Within a couple of weeks of his death the money dried up the silenced realised it was safe to speak and the shit hit the fan . Decades of abuse surfaced . Met him on a couple of occasions and he was creepy , he dragged my 9 year old daughter onto his knee when we were holidaying near his cottage and i wasnt moving an inch away from her , as an abused child myself its a spidey sense that stays with you always . His huge gold draped bodyguard stood behind him and i just dragged her away . He was a very old man at that stage . My daughter to this day in her 30s says its her claim to fame "i sat on Savilles knee and nothing happened "

Trump, well do you really think hes an innocent? Daddys money has bought silence for a lot of years and abusers dont get quieter with age. He seems to be able to ignore that teenage girls are children . He has a long history of going legal to silence people . Because your legal system can drag on for years and years people give up or he silences them with threats and money . Screaming hoax all the time isnt fooling anyone , the reason this hasnt gone further is that Epstein had the dirt all across the board all parties and countries so everybody was hoping that time alone would make people give up . Now the big question is will his minions support him ? or will he quietly be suicided or a sudden death . At which point it will all come out . They will deny all knowledge and continue on making billions without him?  Time will tell 

UC the Beginning

So ive waited till we have finally got the Universal Credit sorted to tell you the story . Did the application online with the help of daughter , so that Himself didnt throw the laptop through the window , hes much better behaved when shes around.  We then had to await a letter so we could speak to someone , they wouldnt speak to me , it had to be himself . Lovely and sexist of them !! anyway i was telling him the questions he had to ask and then he had to repeat them to the dweeb on the phone . He managed to get it so that they would pay my carers allowance direct to me . A small victory because of his mental health difficulties and we asked them also to pay direct housing costs to the local council .  We were then sent a letter to attend the local Job Centre for an identification interview and to produce our paperwork , we had to contact them to ask for the appointment at the local office because it has proper disabled parking and access, the one in Lincoln has turned over the disabled parking to EV stations !!! . We finally got this sorted out and attended , himself only managed to hit one room divider on his buggy so he did well , hes struggling with the controls at the moment so taking him anywhere can be interesting. He was also having a shouty day due to his hearing going yet again . Once theyve decided  its you , not being made easier by the fact you dont have a passport , but have fetched every other document on the list , though you only need 3. I did suggest they could always get the security guard to confirm it . Well he is one of our sons..lol  They then print out what applies to your claim you sign it and they witness it .  I think the lad  was baffled when i proceeded to read it before signing it and i pointed out i wouldnt trust the DWP with anything . So far so good . This all takes around 3 weeks .

Then i hear himself shouting , hes had a phone call to tell us we will need to move because they wont meet housing costs if you have a spare room ? i managed to get the phone off him before they hung up and tried to explain that i was his carer and wife at which point the dweeb on the phone goes "hes disabled? " Oh be joyful there is no communication between Universal Credit and DWP  it would seem . Anyway they wanted to speak to him again and i explained that he cant control the shouting its due to a brain injury and they asked a quite reasonable question about why we had a spare room and he shouted that i sleep in there so it isnt spare , because he has night terrors and has tried to kill me on a couple of occasions . Well that was a conversation stopper !!  Anyway theyve now decided we are allowed a spare room!! 

In all the process took the full 5 weeks, we were well prepared , they did keep asking if we needed foodbank vouchers , but then we started to get the letters from the council threatening to evict us because they still hadnt paid their share of the housing costs!!! thats taken 3 months to sort out because they basically kept the money and didnt bother to give it to the council .

Now the other strange thing its that from the day you apply you will be bombarded  online on whatever social media you use, with endless posts about fraud and how errors are all your fault and you will be punished . Talk about paranoia inducing , this is everyday!!  Im immune, but if you had problems mentally this could tip you over the edge. 

Overall we are are about £30 a week worse off  which is what we expected , personally im £12.50 a week better off because i dont have to pay for the privilege of my not spare room  

So Much

 Thats me so much to do so little motivation . struggling to find the urge at the moment im afraid . Tons of crafty stuff to finish, I  have an infestation of sewing machines and japanese vintage clothing along with a huge box of embroidered linen  , from an auction that told me i had won nothing , they then sent me a threatening invoice two weeks later!! Went to pick up and found there was much more than i had bid on . Quite literally there was the kitchen sink and a waterbutt among it . I would imagine it was stuff somebody had refused to take , but once im motivated , it will go to new homes..lol.

Now heres a question , why i have i suddenly become popular in Brazil and Thailand ?  Speak to me whoever you are , or has some weird algorithm lost the plot . 

So once again the prices are soaring in the supermarkets , why do they insult our intelligence by saying inflation is just over 3% its not little price rises , popped into Iceland yesterday and noticed they had a fresh meat offer 3 for £12 looked at the packs and was horrified , there wasnt enough meat in each pack to feed one person , wafer thin barbecue sizzlers  , basically they would be 2p barbecue turds in seconds. The garden however is going well. the mixed outdoor heirloom tomatoes are going slightly mad and the bees love them , along with the squash and pumpkins . Somewhat oddly my big bean row that is covered in flowers dont appear to be setting on at all , potatoes have perked up now we have had a couple of  days of showers .  But thats just gardening every year a different challenge , i was deeply envious of a guy down south who had succeeded with a huge outdoor melon patch , bet he had sweet potatoes as well 

Lousy

 im doing a down in the dumps post , I do wonder everyday what will happen with mommy dearest , if things keep going down hill with her behaviour its full time psychiatric care , the dementia  department where she is is modern, heavily camera monitored  they all have individual rooms and shower rooms , they do lock them in at night and i do think that shes well looked after . But we did look round the very few options when she first came off Council care , they were pretty grim , places with few staff no cameras and that funny smell . Shared rooms are a no no as she did try to suffocate another patient for snoring at the hospital . Plus she has a history of  trying to injure staff and being sectioned . I dont think anyone including the doctors expected her to live this long . They can no longer dose her with anti psychotics because of her heart, they at least gave the staff a rest from her endless abuse , the home is ringing every day about what has happened . If she was a pet we could have her put to sleep and it would be a kinder option for her and everyone around her . Shes not even covered by the new euthanasia legislation . So this could drag on for years or it could  end any second , nobody knows . I wish her GP was Harold Shipman at times . 

Bits and Bobs

Went out for a couple of hours yesterday to the metropolis of Horncastle with my daughter , dragged her to the 50p bookshop and a couple of the stranger antique shops , the ones with the filthy windows and stuff piled up to the ceilings , wandered round the charity shops and bought zilch . I think mr BH had sent her on a mission to find something for my birthday ...lol fail 

We popped into the big garden center and pretty much all the stock was on sale due to the Scorchio and the winds . Came home with one battered outdoor monster and a couple of £1.49 lost label houseplants. Just got home and settled for a nanna nap and the phone rings its the home

Mommy dearest was awaiting the paramedics , once again she had fallen they would ring me back when they knew what was happening .  Half an hour later the lovely David her carer rang back  to say she was fine . But then he can barely get his words out for apologising . He said mother had been spicy all week , he had taken her lunch, which she had thrown at him , stood up to go for him and put her foot in her dinner and ended up flat on her back .  So i then had to reassure him that it wasnt his fault , we are well aware that she is getting increasingly violent it has been noted by visitors .  It does however raise the question of how long they will be willing to keep her if she keeps trying to injure staff .  Full time psychiatric care is bleedin grim in that area . David is a huge Ghanaian but i wouldnt fancy the chances of some wee girl against her.