Learning Curve

 I ventured to the Community Pantry last week on my own , due to Himself doing something with his brother that didnt require me . It did cause a bit of an argument because he insisted how would he cope with nobody to make tea and lunch . There are times hes very clingy toddler but BIL was there so i didnt see any problem . Friday is a day i rarely venture into town but it was as dead as a doornail , so i was enjoying having a bit of a gossip with one of the volunteers , an elderly lady of a very great vintage , who like me doesnt tolerate fools and idiots . They were trying to wrap her in cotton wool and she wasnt having it ..lol..The pastor was fussing round her and he was getting told in no uncertain terms . Anyway she was telling me they are now holding cooking classes using fresh foods , they get mountains of fruit and veg donated . They had social services there that day , they had bought a minibus of coming up to 18 care leavers . the plan was that they would learn to make potato wedges or sweet potato wedges a nice simple idea you would think . Anyway there was a major problem , they are not allowed to use knives or own them . In fact they didnt even know how to use a knife . So quite how they are teaching them any measure of independence was beyond both of us . She had suggested that they teach them to peel potatoes in a sarcastic manner . The pastor had promptly scuttled off to buy safety peelers .  The world is going to die if nobody even knows how to peel a potato isnt it? I can see that a lady in her 90s can see that and im sure you can 

Happy Shopper

Oh my did i have a good day at the jumbles , a little church one that was fill a bag for £6 and i was determined to get my moneys worth , rammed it with large size clothing a large book and a pyrex sauce dish that matches my everyday snowflake pyrex then finally i spotted some gorgeous fabric and shovelled that in as well . then on to the next where i also got a huge bag of big sized clothing and of all things for 50p , a veg slicer never used  , that was on the little list in my head having broken mine and using it a lot for the dehydrator. I washed everything when i got home and the line was full its been out a couple of days in the wind and rain trying to get rid of the fabric conditioner smell ..lol There seems to be tons of large size clothing at the jumbles at the moment . Is it because every ones on the skinny jabs?  

My daughter then turned up with a couple of boxes i won at an auction weeks ago , they got forgotten in her garage , i'd only paid a couple of quid for them because id spotted a Tiny Tears arm sticking out ..lol turns out ive two Tiny Tears and a huge Woolworths pram doll , plus a whole box of weird 70s  electrical goods and clean baking tins , so i guess i will be doing a car boot in the Spring . On her way out my daughter  spotted the fabric id bought , says you do know what that is? nice fabric to cut up for patchwork ?  it would seem its an expensive bed set by Joules who knew , its meaningless to me . ive been told that once its dry shes selling it on vinted ..lol

Im Back

 Now mobile , still a wee bit wobbly , usual nerve problems . But hey ive a double jumble out in the wilderness near Spilsby for Saturday to aim for  . Ive being playing kitchen catch up , finally got my apple pie filling canned , doing pears tomorrow . trotted down and finished harvesting squash , more than i realised because they had been hiding under the corn and tomatoes , strangely the outdoor tomatoes are having a second flush theyve gone lush and green again and have set on loads of the small tomatoes , which every time we have a sunny day ripen, its nearly november, im sure the first frost will finish them, but hey theyre getting used . Maize corn are a bit sparse but they have a myriad of different colours so i will save seed for next year . I was planning to harvest the dried beans but its rained so they will have to wait again .

I thought that having barely bothered with the internet i would get up to tons of news and goings on , I was wrong , seems i missed the Rapture and all those folks who got left behind are whinging . It doesnt seem to have crossed their minds that the godly might have actually been scooped up and it was a minibus full Maybe they arent quite as godly as they think they are?

Just sat here watching a pair of kites being harassed by the crows over the back garden , thats it life goes on and nothing thats happening in the world makes any difference. 

Unclean

 Here i am ringing my leper bell yet again, buggerin shingles and its a bad batch not sure whats triggered it, though himself has been a bit rough and been to the hospital so it could be any viral plague hes picked up , 3 days wiped out in bed now staggering about nuked on painkillers , just for a change it figured it would wrap right round my thigh , no point visiting the doctors once its hatched antivirals do jack nothing. they did there usual aka nothing , so got up and threatened them with murder , now Sarcastic son has some bug , hoping its the same one or my life could get interesting. lol

Anyway daughter rang this morning and said they were taking me to the cat jumble , im not infectious just crippled , a jumble sale on painkillers was fun, tons of stuff i neither needed or wanted ..lol.. so for a change i came home laden with studio pottery and West German pottery. i was watching the resellers nearly scrapping over onyx table lamps  guess theyre having a moment on Vinted ? Surprisingly they had an awful lot of really good woodturned stuff that nobody bothered with all labelled as to what wood it was , i did tell one of the resellers to get it but i didnt stop long due to being crippled and a wee bit away with the fairies , first time ive been on my feet for long in over a week , now im feeling it . So it could be build a pillow nest with a good book kind of weekend 

Plus sized

 Amid the dull and draining time of year...you know winter is coming and all that , its the little things that cheer you up , went to pick up my solitary win at the auction and the porter had saved me a whole bucket full of plants that some other bidder had turfed out of the planters they had bought , they have been admitted to my plant hospital and will be ready for sale in the spring ..lol  waste not want not , and all that , and ive gained two large planters and a big strawberry pot as well from my little bid , its always a good time of year to start buying garden stuff , just because you can store it outside till Spring . Ive always been of the view that if youve £5 in your purse you should try to turn it into £10 by whatever means you can . 

Popped into Lidl to do as ordered by the government stock up on water and toilet rolls for the big storms at the weekend . Managed to spot a unicorn veg box at the checkouts £1.50 worth of goodness , 3 huge bags of sprouts , bag of onions that i cant figure how they are out of date , bag of bananas that arent even ripe , 2 grapefruits  , net of tangerines , pack of nectarines , half a dozen decent apples to add to the mountain and a solitary sweet potato , i think the sprouts may have put people off ..lol.. doesnt work for me, we love sprouts . Usually in the rare event you spot a veg box its all wilting lettuce .

Ive a whole weekend of veg processing to face , so im being prepared and dragged the gas camping stove in case the weather is suitably grim and my huge collection of jars and pans are ready to roll , i will stick an extra £20 on the electric and can myself into a coma 

Season

Season of mists and mellow chainsaws , got to love this time of year , wet cats trying to climb into bed with you , xmas tat everywhere and endless crappy perfume adverts on the TV , i was so fed up and bored yesterday that i leapt into action when daughter suggested lets go to Torksey, .havent been in over a year and nothing has changed theres still tons of blokes with huge Ikea bags waiting to run in , now theres hoardes dragging fishing trolleys piled high , meanwhile we had a casual wander i bought A David Essex autobiography  and an odd couple of quid bit of Sylvac, may manage to photograph it , daughter informs me she has fixed that problem but cant fix my facebook problem ..lol such is life 

Now lets get to the bit where i rant ...bloody charity shops . Have you tried to donate to one lately ?  Himself was at the hospital the other day so i went for a wander round the top end of Lincoln , Hospice superstore in a row of units in an industrial estate , you must now book an appointment to donate ! and they then sort through everything you take and hand most of it back , i watched a poor bewildered bloke going through the ritual and he was totally bemused when she refused to take a couple of boxes of books because they appeared to have been read . Then handed most of the clothes back because they wernt tagged in fact unless it was new she didnt want any of it . i wandered into the shop theres hardly anything in it except overpriced tat . They now have designer rails .  Ive been to some of the other shops they have locally and theyre much the same , You can only donate on certain days or the right phase of the moon guess they have new management with even higher salaries as that is the way it usually goes .  Su Ryder have a large store just up the road and they seem to be much more reasonable  , guess they are getting more donations . I know they need to make money but they have lost the plot .

Cycle

The busiest time of the year is upon us , harvest the garden time  , the heavy rain means i can get the potatoes up finally , lots of them but very small but thats what a drought does , ive squash to bring in and a bean row drying up nicely , still no cauliflowers just tons of leaves..lol , dozens of tomatoes waiting for some inspiration on that one, we eat tons fresh but we dont use hardly any in the winter , im the only one who eats chutney so four jars is enough for me ,i may dry a load and see what i can hide them in over the winter ..lol, maize corn to dry for popcorn, plus himself will use a load for fishing , it breaks my heart really i just use a small patch these days but once upon a time every inch was productive and it saved a fortune with a big family . Living in the countryside you can barely give produce away , everybody i know gardens or they shop at the posh farmers markets , though i did laugh the other day when The Riverford Organic delivery van broke down out on the lane.

It would seem the newbuild over the road has sold , well it has a sold sign , i noticed someone had drawn a bullet hole on the forehead of the gurning estate agent photo , at least i think its drawn on , hes so well loved in the village he is ruining . its all a bit strange as nobody has seen a single viewer and in a small village full of the neighbourhood watch that is dog walking pensioners  thats odd . I expect its an investment buyer from away. theres a big market for posh rentals for the RAF officers and the other nationalities based here its easy money the rent is astronomical the military pays it and usually you dont see them much these days as they are always at work, but we have to watch out for Americans driving on the wrong side of the road and the Saudis suffering from culture shock. at the moment we have lots of Japanese air force here for war games. We have the jets screaming out at all hours as Putin plays silly buggers in the Baltic States so sleep is optional.

PS the roof is still leaking , not a thing have we heard in over a weak , i will chase it up later and doubtless they will have tried to contact us or have called and nobody is home   

Mess

 Well yet again my descent into gibbering madness continues !! the first proper rain of the season , the big cracks in the ground are showing signs of closing and a whole crippling day of potato lifting to face. Life was looking promising for a moment there , plus i made the first chicken stew of the season, but no something has to go wrong yet again . Sarcastic son potters in to tell me there water dripping through the ceiling in his bedroom . This was Saturday night , i rang the emergency repair number only to find it was dead !! so i had to wait till Monday morning when the call centre opened , they seemed very unconcerned when i pointed out that the chimney stack looks to have moved and they are going to have a contractor get in touch for which im still waiting and with another big storm forecast for tomorrow it could be interesting . Sarcastic son has resolved the matter by sleeping with decorator plastic sheets over his bed and a line of buckets where the worst of it is , star that he is he pointed out that if hes killed in a collapse think of the compensation !!! hes such a cheerful soul

Drawing In

 Its getting dark earlier every night , the squirrels have totally decimated the hazel bushes , mainly the fattest squirrel ever , hes huge and likes to throw stuff at you and swears a lot ..lol . Little hedgehog has grown so fast im not sure what was in the posh cat kibble , hes living in the hedge bottom under the big tree , his brothers and sisters have moved on , but this little one seems to be about most of the time , he has white spots on his bum so hes easy to spot , he will easily make his target weight before winter .

Im very technologically challenged at the moment , im currently locked out of facebook because my computer doesnt have a camera?  it seems i must send a 3d picture to be authenticated , i dont have internet on my phone either , so we will see how this pans out but its no great loss . Then theres the computer telling me its to outdated to be supported , so if i vanish im not dead its merely me being eradicated by technology .  It would seem that at the moment this is my only contact with the outside world..lol  Doubtless one of the kids will get annoyed enough with me to sort it all out .

Grandson is currently sort of in residence at the moment , having miserably failed his exams , being unable to go to college because of this , told he must go back into 6th form but the school wont have him. Hes after going into the building trade , so hes working on that . Daughter has had a wee bit of a breakdown over it all , hence ive ended up with him here pottering around with grandad and endlessly chasing girls ..lol.. ive had enough boys not to be phased by much of anything , they all have the gormless know it all phase , he will knuckle down eventually hes to intelligent not to, his epic level of sarcasm is why the school dont want him back ..lol 

Rantin

 Now i know nobody listens to my political rants but here i go again .....

Taxation . why do they have to make it so complicated ?  most just have PAYE to contend with . The rest seem to have to employ endless scheming tax avoidance schemes to make ends meet . Lets just simplify the whole scheme , no offshore accounts , no uncles next door neighbours dog , no climate claptrap.  Nothing but PAYE across the board , every penny profit made by you is paid by you to HMRC . Then they decide how much they give you back . Big companies Amazon and the like , still have to give up their profit to HMRC . There would be squealing from up the food chain . The accountancy industry would take a kicking but there would be plenty of new jobs at HMRC. All you would have to do is convince HMRC that your  expenses etc are legitimate. It removes all these mistakes that the rich make in one fell swoop . Your guilty till you prove otherwise . The government would be solvent in months . 

Too simple to ever get anyone elected , but wouldnt it be hilarious  

Goat

 im having a very grumpy phase at the moment , lack of sleep and hobbling about arent helping . Im finding everything is getting my goat . More problems with the van , hes now spent more on repairs than the bleedin thing cost , he cant go out anywhere that involves walking and its all my fault because i cant manually lift his buggy even in pieces . And of course if he cant go anywhere he thinks i shouldnt either , bollocks .

 I did a car boot on Sunday with daughter and her friend , sold tons of stuff for pennies just to clear my dining room out for the winter, made a quite respectable amount of money , saw a couple of the vloggers i follow online , even flogged a load of cross stitch kits to one of them, people seemed to be buying loads of craft stuff because winter is coming. Made another contact with someone whos opening a little shop in their barn .

Garden wise its all gone a bit mental, still cant get the spuds up the ground is basically cement , the tomato's have taken over i keep tripping over squash , but the pumpkins are tiny . Tons of the speckly italian beans for drying , caulis are huge but not a flower on them , so i will keep plodding on . then ive the pear mountain to tackle , i dug all the canning stuff out so thats going to be next weeks project . Plus i started a garden project that im already regretting..lol    

Bin There

 Its been a funny old week the bathroom renovation via the council contractors turned into the usual farce one lad turned up , sucked his teeth and announced that it cant  be relined because the internal walls are too thin ??? he then said all he could do was spray the whole room with mould retardant and scrape the loose paint off before undercoating over it the next day  but he needed to consult his manager . Well he sprayed it left it turned up the next day and his manager said they cant even fill the holes because they are our responsibility !!!!  their  soddin contractors made the damned holes fitting the new fan and light fittings. So he just slapped undercoat everywhere and left , its already flaking off and its not even been a week . I took photos and emailed it to the council , who say its a decoration problem and its up to us to resolve it . I just give up 

Heres another gripe , bleedin you tubers filming everywhere i go , we are totally infested with them . I know we are a holiday destination but its intrusive . My fat arse has appeared 3 times this week, that i have found , im a private person and it makes me really uncomfortable . Im supposed to be doing a car boot with daughter next week . Theres one in particular who shall remain nameless who likes to buy electronics and games then brag on how stupid everyone but him is and how he makes thousands from stupid people . Someone did point out that they only bother you if you have something to hide , i have nothing to hide but there are maybe a dozen photos taken of me in the last 40 years , i just hate it . My gran used to say that every photo eats a bit of your soul  

One of Those Days

 From getting up this morning its been one of those days , everything petty and annoying has just happened today , from a huge bill for mothers care , that yet again has gone up by £100 a week now over £1800 a week , the printer not working when i needed to urgently print something off , the cat  doing a flying take off and slashing me to bits and its still dripping blood everywhere . Picking tomatoes in a pale pink top and turned into tomato tits with green stains everywhere and it hasnt washed out . Went to the garden centre with himself moaning and groaning , they only had big bags of the gravel i needed and there was nobody to help AAARRRGGHHH  managed to manhandle it into the boot and sarcastic son split the bag getting it out of the boot and just left it .  Himself has been telling me how useless i am all day and i could cheerfully murder him . Ive a huge chine bone to process for the freezer , 10000 plums to do something with , finally found cooking apples so need to get on with apple time and the house is a shit tip and the builders are going to be in this week to reline the bathroom . 

TOMMOROW HAS TO BE A BETTER DAY

Scorchio

 Well once again its reached the level of Bedouin in Tescos , its a tad warm, at least we have a bit of a breeze today to make it a little more normal summer. ive a ton of half turned tomatoes which will doubtless glut all at once , i cant see down the garden for the maize corn , squash and pumpkins  and for a change i cant get the potatoes up due to the concrete soil !!! The plums have gone mental but they are tiny this year . Not tons of apples but enough and a scary amount of pears , the dehydrator is flat out , but i can never have too many apple chips and this year its going to be a ton of pear chips as well . Its to hot to be canning , so it can wait for cooler days, i need to be stocktaking whats left from last year before i make more . i did nothing with the gooseberries this year because i had a lot from last year left and im not one who cans for the sake of it and theres only two of us that eat it. Electric costs alone make it not so economical in the UK.

  Ive been buying at auction again , currently parting out loads of craft stuff, daughter ran off with loads of stuff i didnt recognise so i presume its for card making, yet more gorgeous linens lace and doilies all spotless , wool , knotting needles , crochet patterns the box of bags turned out to be vintage 80s good makes so have gone off to my daughters friend who sells shoes and bags, theres a huge expensive leather camera bag  so my camera gear will get an upgrade , strangely there was also 2 Sony Walkman CD players in leather bags as well . Im quite enjoying them , back in the day we never got named brand anything it was always knock off copies or came from Tandy , does anyone remember Tandy on the high street? With commission it came to a whole £7.50 and the reason it was so cheap , right at the front of the tiny photo was a huge brand new car headlight, i sent useful son the photo , he identified its make and model straight away and a new one is £400 Mr Bah Humbug is getting it listed as we speak , its going to pay for this weeks grocery haul and fuel...lol  im walking through a track in the dining room and theres another big sale tomorrow...AAARRRRRGGGHHH 

Babies

 Its official im now the foster mum of 3 or 4 tiny hedgehogs , theyre the size of tennis balls and kept setting off the camera last night but you couldnt see anything there , on going out to investigate theres a little one on the doorstep struggling to eat the giant cat kibble i put out for the big hogs , totally un bothered by me , i managed to find some kitten kibble and the feeding frenzy began , ive been out on a mission this morning for more kitten food, ive put more rocks in the water trays so they can get out  , second litter of the year these need to be well fed and up to weight by october or when the weather turns . Theyre the youngest ive ever seen in the garden , i saw 3 together last night and something was rustling under the trailer so i think there may be four . I already have half a dozen regulars so it looks like a good year for hedgehogs .  Though i havent seen a single snake this year .

Now its go play in the garden day , bye for now

Selfish

Not around much mentally at the moment , Mommy Dearest keeps preying on my mind . We got the phone call last week , come now shes dying the emergency doctor had been called . My daughter was all for dropping everything and i told her just to wait , the following morning she had perked up started eating again and was being her usual abusive self . Daughter waited till the weekend to visit and found that granny thinks its now 1950 and shes dating Michael her first boyfriend , she did tell me once that it was him that gave her bruised knees all the time??? its just dragging on and on they think it may be another tiny stroke , but shes DNR and getting her to behave enough to go for a scan is impossible . Shes now in a stripped room because she managed to get the shower rail off the wall before they confiscated it , anything can be a weapon or a missile and David her main carer still loves her , that man is a saint . I dont think people realise just how bad it can be in a locked Dementia unit. SIL says she may be  blind but she can hear the rustle of a packet of Maltesers at a thousand paces and despite difficulty swallowing can manage to eat them.  Theres no dignity in Dementia and knowing that the variant mother has is frequently hereditary doesnt make this any easier at what point do you decide to end it?  mother botched her suicide and this is the result .   

Jimmy 2

 I will probably upset someone with this one , cant say im worried about that . 

Its as if good old Trump is starting to give off major Jimmy Saville vibes , if your overseas reader look him up . He was a monster hiding in plain site for many years , everybody knew there was something off about him , many knew exactly what was happening but because of his fame and fortune just kept quiet. He had a lot of people he payed off , but he also collected the dirt on other people and used it to keep folks quiet. Within a couple of weeks of his death the money dried up the silenced realised it was safe to speak and the shit hit the fan . Decades of abuse surfaced . Met him on a couple of occasions and he was creepy , he dragged my 9 year old daughter onto his knee when we were holidaying near his cottage and i wasnt moving an inch away from her , as an abused child myself its a spidey sense that stays with you always . His huge gold draped bodyguard stood behind him and i just dragged her away . He was a very old man at that stage . My daughter to this day in her 30s says its her claim to fame "i sat on Savilles knee and nothing happened "

Trump, well do you really think hes an innocent? Daddys money has bought silence for a lot of years and abusers dont get quieter with age. He seems to be able to ignore that teenage girls are children . He has a long history of going legal to silence people . Because your legal system can drag on for years and years people give up or he silences them with threats and money . Screaming hoax all the time isnt fooling anyone , the reason this hasnt gone further is that Epstein had the dirt all across the board all parties and countries so everybody was hoping that time alone would make people give up . Now the big question is will his minions support him ? or will he quietly be suicided or a sudden death . At which point it will all come out . They will deny all knowledge and continue on making billions without him?  Time will tell 

UC the Beginning

So ive waited till we have finally got the Universal Credit sorted to tell you the story . Did the application online with the help of daughter , so that Himself didnt throw the laptop through the window , hes much better behaved when shes around.  We then had to await a letter so we could speak to someone , they wouldnt speak to me , it had to be himself . Lovely and sexist of them !! anyway i was telling him the questions he had to ask and then he had to repeat them to the dweeb on the phone . He managed to get it so that they would pay my carers allowance direct to me . A small victory because of his mental health difficulties and we asked them also to pay direct housing costs to the local council .  We were then sent a letter to attend the local Job Centre for an identification interview and to produce our paperwork , we had to contact them to ask for the appointment at the local office because it has proper disabled parking and access, the one in Lincoln has turned over the disabled parking to EV stations !!! . We finally got this sorted out and attended , himself only managed to hit one room divider on his buggy so he did well , hes struggling with the controls at the moment so taking him anywhere can be interesting. He was also having a shouty day due to his hearing going yet again . Once theyve decided  its you , not being made easier by the fact you dont have a passport , but have fetched every other document on the list , though you only need 3. I did suggest they could always get the security guard to confirm it . Well he is one of our sons..lol  They then print out what applies to your claim you sign it and they witness it .  I think the lad  was baffled when i proceeded to read it before signing it and i pointed out i wouldnt trust the DWP with anything . So far so good . This all takes around 3 weeks .

Then i hear himself shouting , hes had a phone call to tell us we will need to move because they wont meet housing costs if you have a spare room ? i managed to get the phone off him before they hung up and tried to explain that i was his carer and wife at which point the dweeb on the phone goes "hes disabled? " Oh be joyful there is no communication between Universal Credit and DWP  it would seem . Anyway they wanted to speak to him again and i explained that he cant control the shouting its due to a brain injury and they asked a quite reasonable question about why we had a spare room and he shouted that i sleep in there so it isnt spare , because he has night terrors and has tried to kill me on a couple of occasions . Well that was a conversation stopper !!  Anyway theyve now decided we are allowed a spare room!! 

In all the process took the full 5 weeks, we were well prepared , they did keep asking if we needed foodbank vouchers , but then we started to get the letters from the council threatening to evict us because they still hadnt paid their share of the housing costs!!! thats taken 3 months to sort out because they basically kept the money and didnt bother to give it to the council .

Now the other strange thing its that from the day you apply you will be bombarded  online on whatever social media you use, with endless posts about fraud and how errors are all your fault and you will be punished . Talk about paranoia inducing , this is everyday!!  Im immune, but if you had problems mentally this could tip you over the edge. 

Overall we are are about £30 a week worse off  which is what we expected , personally im £12.50 a week better off because i dont have to pay for the privilege of my not spare room  

So Much

 Thats me so much to do so little motivation . struggling to find the urge at the moment im afraid . Tons of crafty stuff to finish, I  have an infestation of sewing machines and japanese vintage clothing along with a huge box of embroidered linen  , from an auction that told me i had won nothing , they then sent me a threatening invoice two weeks later!! Went to pick up and found there was much more than i had bid on . Quite literally there was the kitchen sink and a waterbutt among it . I would imagine it was stuff somebody had refused to take , but once im motivated , it will go to new homes..lol.

Now heres a question , why i have i suddenly become popular in Brazil and Thailand ?  Speak to me whoever you are , or has some weird algorithm lost the plot . 

So once again the prices are soaring in the supermarkets , why do they insult our intelligence by saying inflation is just over 3% its not little price rises , popped into Iceland yesterday and noticed they had a fresh meat offer 3 for £12 looked at the packs and was horrified , there wasnt enough meat in each pack to feed one person , wafer thin barbecue sizzlers  , basically they would be 2p barbecue turds in seconds. The garden however is going well. the mixed outdoor heirloom tomatoes are going slightly mad and the bees love them , along with the squash and pumpkins . Somewhat oddly my big bean row that is covered in flowers dont appear to be setting on at all , potatoes have perked up now we have had a couple of  days of showers .  But thats just gardening every year a different challenge , i was deeply envious of a guy down south who had succeeded with a huge outdoor melon patch , bet he had sweet potatoes as well 

Lousy

 im doing a down in the dumps post , I do wonder everyday what will happen with mommy dearest , if things keep going down hill with her behaviour its full time psychiatric care , the dementia  department where she is is modern, heavily camera monitored  they all have individual rooms and shower rooms , they do lock them in at night and i do think that shes well looked after . But we did look round the very few options when she first came off Council care , they were pretty grim , places with few staff no cameras and that funny smell . Shared rooms are a no no as she did try to suffocate another patient for snoring at the hospital . Plus she has a history of  trying to injure staff and being sectioned . I dont think anyone including the doctors expected her to live this long . They can no longer dose her with anti psychotics because of her heart, they at least gave the staff a rest from her endless abuse , the home is ringing every day about what has happened . If she was a pet we could have her put to sleep and it would be a kinder option for her and everyone around her . Shes not even covered by the new euthanasia legislation . So this could drag on for years or it could  end any second , nobody knows . I wish her GP was Harold Shipman at times .